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Hi! It's my first post ever.

I've been trying to lose 30 lbs for so long now, I've tried everything under the Sun but nothing. Can anyone give me advice on that?

I will start my official weight loss journey, wish me luck, I will update you every week.

I hope that I can lose at least 15lbs in one month because I have a very important event coming up next month.

And besides all of that, I wanna get an academic comeback.

I don't know why but one of the worst things that I experience daily is food apathy, more precisely I'd call it food hatred or food phobia. When I just do things on its own without much work, I am okay. But oh man, when I need to eat my brain gets really messed up. If you tell me I need to eat next week or 3 hours, to me that is being delivered a letter with execution date. It hurts me mentally when I got to eat, my brain slows down and I look like infected in Shikki. I have no clue why it hurts so much, maybe my brain cant handle the idea of slowing down to get extra fuel, but for me it is indeed awful.

My left shoulder felt like it was eaten by shark. I felt wow I was fucking dying

Ate chicken, drank protein did fucking every t h i n g but it kept fucking me. I started asking why is that that i only dont feel muscle sore when i eat carb food is it over?

Then drank and chugged water insanely nevermind like shit either way kek

This is probably true, i am horrified of them.

No seriously why do i pick really randomly big portions every time even when I have backup protein like a dumbass?

I can’t explain one big thing that I hate

I really hate eating. I googled so many diseases but I cant explain the urge to lazy around and for hours to avoid the “responsibility” consciously.

I can work hard! I can! And sure, I need to get used to it but then…. Oh… when at that small second I feel hunger and my mind contemplated for me to stop doing EVERYTHING, just to eat, my brain sadly says BIG NONO.

I start doing nothing and when confronted i avoid it like plaque, i will put on plate, right… go to kitchen, good idea. Then I will start walking! I really have problem with consuming food, there were multiple times back then especially starting 2019…insh at covid era somewhere then, but not so long ago either, i would have extreme fasting period of months…. That happened on multiple occasions, one of them was severe. I lost lots of calories but surprisingly my body didnt feel that different. You can be surprised how long you can survive without food given you dont waste all calories and carbohydrates and glycogen most important through intense workouts.

With more dormat turgor life, you can survive even without water for quite a bit.

I definitelt did back then…. Anyway, the past is over, sometimes I fear “wow w00t wasted all his lifespan hahaahah what” but seriously on average a normal person is far more efficient than I am at efficiency in life. Sometimes its hard to put “Ive done something this grand!”

But yes i need to go fucking eat. Proving the problem……….

Do you know how I feel? I feel like I’m drowning, and I’m aware of it but I can’t do anything.

I know I have to study a lot, but I can’t. I can’t get myself to do stuff, to concentrate.

I know I have to keep my house in order and do the dishes every day, do the laundry. But I can’t.

I am gaining weight and I know I should and want to eat healthy and not stress-eatings. But I do.

I know that I should be active more and workout so that I have a nice body. But I can’t do it more than one day.

I know I should take care of myself. But I fucking can’t.

And I hate myself for losing control like that, not being able to control my willpower. I hate myself for knowing this shit and still procrastinate and watch a movie instead or surf the instagram. I know I’m wasting my time, but there’s this voice in my head that’s just so strong, when I hear it I say ‘screw it you’ll do it tomorrow’. And the worst part is I am allowing that voice to control me. I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know what’s happening to me, it’s like I’m losing control over my mind and my will to do things. I am telling myself every fucking day that tomorrow will be different. Tomorrow will be a new start, but I feel deep down that it won’t. I feel like I’m drowning in my own sadness.

I realized a few days ago that I’m in depression. And that hit me hard. I am alone, sad and depressed. And I am trying to fight this fucking thing everyday but I fail. You know what though? I don’t want to lose control to that little piece of shit, I don’t want to be unhealthy, fat and depressed. I will fight it and I will kill it.

And when I do, it will be the greatest win of my life.

would love some wine but don’t wanna become alcoholic again after 2months in psych ward

--- DIET & WORK OUT PLAN

Since I am short, I need less calories than a tall person. = 1400 calories daily with minimum 65g of protein (cut sugar, eat clean). 2L of water everyday and lots of tea!

Run for 40 to 60 minutes a day, do minimum 30 minute elongating pilates.

Drink a lot of warm tea and at least 2L of water.

I will listen to multiple fat loss and 20 cm waist subliminals 🌸

Lymphatic drainage massage, gua sha daily.

Do calming yoga before sleep and after waking up

Ahhh I’m on day 4 of the juice cleanse and so far I’ve lost 2.3kg!!!

I‘m hoping that I’ll lose at least 2.5Kg by the time the cleanse is over🤭

Anyone else feel like they have really good style and now they just need the body to go with the cute outfits 😭

Today is day 1 of the juice cleanse!!!

I won’t be weighing myself throughout the cleanse (only on day one and on the last day) so I don’t have to worry about the water weight!

Today is going really well so far. The juices actually taste really nice and they’ve been keeping me full so far 🤭

AHHH MY JUICE CLEANSE ARRIVED I AM SO EXCITED!!!

(667 cals a day)

Ahhh you guys I’m so exited I ordered a five day juice cleanse and it’s arriving tmrrr!!!

It’s 750 cals a day but im planning on leaving out 1-2 juices a day so that it’s not too many calories and I can stretch the cleanse to 7 days!🤭

Ewwwww I just ate and I can feel my stomach getting bigger, I’m disgusted by myself

I should prob introduce myself-

Ppl call me chris so u can go with that. Dinny is fine too lol

My stats:

sw:130 cw:117 gw:113 ugw:100

height: 5’2

lets have fun together lmao

imma vent abt 4na stuff alot here bc i have no one to talk to so

oh and im new to tumblr so warn me if i break any rulers or use something like #s incorrectly

Lowkey would wanna get better. But I am literally nothing without my addictions and obsessions, so we’ll stay here.

Fun dip as OMAD is underrated. (45-50cals)

I hate purging but still feeling some food in me. 😔

(sorry for the pfp it’s temporary but I still figuring it out so you’ll have to bare with me and my choppedness, luv ya’ll.)

Hey just a little PSA.

Moots. I am obsessed with you guys and your blogs. Seeing your posts will never not make my day, good or bad posts. I love y’all so much, feel free to choke me out whenever boo. ❤️❤️

Sorry I don’t rlly reach out. I wish nothing but fairy dust and magic in your lives.

actual icons of everything magical. 💕💕 @angelsdocry @x-psychotictendencies-x @wishhedbeenateenidle @mortifyingdarling @eepiiestgrrl @okkuspokkus

I HATE BEING FAT AND UGLY

Hey reminder, racists are not welcome here or anywhere. We’re all disordered and sick, but this is outrageous. Seek help and leave the internet and don’t post things like this.

I feel like such a wannarexic, but Mia has been my lifeline lately.

my throat hurts.

seeing your veins and bones poke out more>>>>

IT’S MY ABUELOS BIRTHDAY HE’S TURNING 69 I LOVE HIM SMMM! HE IS THE SWEETEST PEA EVER. He sang to me, and we took lots of photos. We both watch Charmed together, his English isn’t amazing so he calls it ‘witches’ though I think he watches just cause he has a crush on Phoebe lmao. He loves my plushies and treats them like his grandkids. He gives me flowers on Mother’s Day bc I’m ‘their mother’. He’s an identical twin, and they’re both so handsome! Happy birthday to him and my Tio. I hope he gets to see a skinny version of me next year. ❤️❤️

The Gag reflex is back, it kinda sucks though bc I have to take off my nails every time b4 I purge. Then reglue them on. (I wear press on every single day btw.)

I HATE HATE when my parents confront me abt things, like I understand it but I just want them to shut up and leave me alone tbh.

Like today my mom was all like ‘Stop taking to me like your the parent and I’m the child’ well maybe if you regulated your emotions and stopped acting like a five year old I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if I didn’t have to comfort you everyday because you feel unhappy with your life I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you didn’t expect me to always be all sweet with you, and make you feel better about being with my dad then I’d treat you like my mom. Maybe if you stopped complaining about every single little thing that’s wrong, I’d treat you like a parent.

Stfu.

Also she got mad that I’ve been using pmo, in regular speech since it’s disrespectful, ITS A FUCKING JOKE. She was all ‘What if your dad told his father he was pissing him off?’ Yeah I guess it wouldn’t go over well bc my dad’s father is practically abusive.

Anyway, I think I’m just mad bc I broke my fast.

So this is my one meal for OMAD including fries, how many cals does this seem like? Like an estimate. The place doesn’t have cals listed. (Which I think should be mandatory for all restaurants but whatever.)

Ignore the photo but there’s about 6 mini sandwiches all this size, each with the ingredients I listed above.

My brother is such a dick (positive) we were watching breaking bad a few weeks back, there’s a scene where a character purposely throws up, and very subtly, especially bc we were with our parents and they don’t know, he just turns to me, and points his finger just a little bit, like oh fr.

I love my brochaco‼️‼️