Myratbrainmusings - My Rat Brain Musings

i appreciate the thought i really do

27th jan 2024

my dad got me a cactus with purple flowers because purple is my favourite colour, the flowers were fake and hot glued onto the very real very alive cactus.i pulled them off to get the hot glue off of the cactus and showed him how horrible it is that they hot glued flowers onto an alive plant, he says he got it because i like purple and now ive ripped the purple off. its some pained metaphor but its sweet how he tries

anyways,

I am so down bad its not even funny anymore

27th dec 2023

i hate to admit it but walker scobell is kinda the king of my heart like i hate this for me but hes just kinda the king of my heart, and maybe i am just a 14 year old teenage girl who cant help but love the new boy of the month with my whole entire soul but i do. you have to remember though that when i like the boy of the month i do it in a different cool teen movie way and NOT in a everyone likes him so i do way yk so all my friends who say they like him do it in a parasocial relationships too attached to people on the internet who dont know they exist kind of way buy im cool and like have a shot bc im cool and wouldnt act like a fangirl and im cool and interesting yk? anyways percy jackson is coming out FAR too slow for my impatient self and i NEED capital N capital E capital E capital D NEED more content bc the amount of physic damage that i would get from watching a stream of him playing fortnite is actually crazy and i still have some self respect (ik ik its hard to believe) but if i dont get more interviews i will watch the watch party video again and again and again and rewatch episodes again and again because im just insane like that, and i kinda dont want to say this bc what if he sees this and my chances with him (that were DEFINITELY real to begin with and im not just hallucinating) would be SHOT,

anyways

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

17th feb 2024

cannibal chef trope

cannibal doctor trope

cannibal anyone who knows in EXTREME detail about food or the body trope

cannibal chef x cannibal doctor?

that is all

anyways,

i admit i want to be loved religiously and i don’t know what to do with my hands

But we’ve never actually had a conversation

Kind of a tortured metaphor

12 feb 2024

mummy polishes the floor using surface polish. its really slippery and i fall down alot, currently i have bruises on both my legs. when i ask her to stop so i dont get hurt she yells and gets angry.

quite literally her need for perfection will kill us all. (figuratively and literally)

anyways,

Intimacy is not just about sex. It's having heart-to-hearts, staying up all night talking, sharing childhood memories, thoughts, fears, dreams & hopes for the future. It's uncontrollable laughter, direct eye contact and feeling each other without touching - it's exchanging energy

powerful vs strong demigods

16th feb 2024

yk what ill say something and you wont like it.

Hazel probably IS the most powerful demigod of the seven.

I KNOW I KNOW EVERYONE SHUT UP FOR A SECOND AND LET ME SPEAK

theres a difference between powerful and strong, strong means that theyre good in fight like actually physically strong without thier magical powers, like percy, hes very strong and could win all of his fights because in usual fights he barely uses his power (other than the water extra power and healing) and could fight without his powers. but Hazel just has some fucking dope ass powers like she could rock your shit but in actual fact she couldnt win a fight without magic because shes 13 and NOT EVEN 5 FOOT. cmon dude like shes powerful but in no world is she stronger than percy or jason.

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