Tw Transphobes - Blog Posts

I just found two terf blogs. An Anya Mouthwashing one and a Shadow the Hedgehog one. Like bro, get outta here. No one wants you guys. Sonic is against oppression and Anya had her autonomy taken away by Jimmy. Terfs want to take away trans people's autonomy, like girl, you have more things in common with Jimmy than you do with Anya.

Edit: I dug a bit deeper into their blogs and holy shit. They're making jokes about killing trans people and trans suicides. You guys can't call yourselves feminists and then make jokes about killing minorities and their suicide rates. With the Shadow one it seems like they got raped because they were trans and this might be a trauma response, but that doesn't give them the right to hate on trans people for what a transphobe did. The Anya one is also an aphobe and doesn't take sexual assault against asexual people seriously.

I think Hydj might be obsessed with me.

Yeah, this dude is a weirdo. This guy claims to hate trans people, but wants to date me? He tried sending messages but I turned them off so they can't message me anymore since I don't follow them. Now they're following me.

Callout to hydj.

Hydj is an artist in the Glass Scientists fandom. They made Jekyll x Hyde art. They support Trump, calling him a hero. They also believe that it would be better if trans people were dead, despite enjoying and making fan art of a trans person's work. This behavior is not acceptable and people should stop interacting and supporting this person.

I may have no pen pressure, and be using a phone, but stress-drawing waits for no man.

28th December, 2020

I will never understand why there are so many transphobes and homophobes in the fandom when the game is so unashamedly queer. It promotes a message of acceptance, and you literally need to help form Gay (RG01 and RG02) and Lesbian (Undyne and Alphys) relationships to get the best ending, and that's not mentioning queer-coded characters like Mad Mew Mew.

Yes, the 4channers were awful and they persist in misgendering me, while simultaneously complaining I don't post anymore, with zero self awareness.

4chan harassment alone isn't why I left. This is.

It's the transphobia.

I have been in the fandom since 2015. I have been arguing with transphobes in the fandom since 2015. I have been making write ups about why it's important not to misgender the - yes, fictional - characters since 2015, because of the complete lack of caring it communicates to real nonbinary people.

Last year, I wrote a post that got 7000 notes and is currently pinned to the Deltarune subreddit. I poured my heart out about what the nonbinary characters meant to me and why they were important.

It was argued over, I was mocked for it, I included personal details about my family situation and my difficulty coming out, I was mocked for it.

I wrote it because I believed it mattered. Because for eight years, the constant comment when mentioning the pronouns of these characters has been: Who cares?

At any point since 2015, Toby could have saved the transgender people in the fandom the trouble of having to "prove" the characters were nonbinary by saying something.

Last year, Legends of Localization comes out - thoroughly reviewed by Toby - and calls Frisk, Monster Kid, and Napstablook "ambiguous", designed to have an unclear gender.

You can see in the collage of screenshots how the transphobes in the fandom took that. One delightful individual was so triumphant over the victory, they put the statement in their Reddit subtitle.

So each time this individual posts to the Undertale subreddit, people will see this quote, carried around like a trophy with all the pride of a dog with a rotting pelt in its mouth. That's how much it meant to the transphobes in the fandom. They're delighted by having this quote to throw back in the faces of transgender fans.

Because who cares? The majority of the fandom isn't transgender, or on tumblr. It's easy for them not to care about transgender people.

You can block block block as many people as you want (I had thousands blocked here) but you can't curate your way out of transphobia. It isn't possible.

Because the majority of the fandom is on Reddit, or YouTube, or Twitter, and they, quite vocally, do not care about transgender people.

Some people may recall that I stopped posting to the Deltarune subreddit after the mods decided to filter all posts containing the word "nonbinary" without telling anyone.

The mods stopped filtering the word after I posted this and apologized, but the point was made: people in the greater fandom think the word "nonbinary" is a dangerous, impolite word, one that only invokes argument and therefore should not be used.

So I stopped posting on the Deltarune and Undertale subreddits. I never made YouTube or Twitter content. I set my blog to only allow people with Tumblr accounts to view it. I turned off all asks, anonymous or otherwise. I blocked thousands of people. It did not work. Transgender people can't curate (read: quarantine) our way out of transphobia.

Years of this, of transgender fans of the series getting attacked for trying to claim and fight for nonbinary representation in the series, and "ambiguous" is the language Toby signed off on.

If the characters are meant to be nonbinary representation, the last eight years has proven that this needs to be stated outright, or the onus of "proving" it falls on the vastly outnumbered transgender fans in the fandom - something that we have never been able to do without being profusely harassed for it until we shut our mouths.

If the characters were only ever meant to be ambiguous for the sake of "freedom of interpretation", then this should have been communicated with seriousness and respect to the transgender fans of the series years ago, not as a throwaway line in a translation book. (and to be clear, this is not at all the author's fault - Toby corrected and reviewed the language used)

This is why I left and why I'm never coming back, no matter what happens next. I have had enough of the transphobia in the fandom, and I have no way of fighting back anymore.

Transphobes in the fandom want the work and the passion of nonbinary people but won't even use a pronoun to show the basest level of respect and humanity for us.

I'm watching our rights being taken away day by day, and people like this just want me to keep producing my worthless little game theory posts.

Trans people don't owe you our "content" or our passion, particularly not when we produce it for free in the face of eight years of a deeply transphobic audience that we are expected to either beg for the most basic respect or to turn our heads down and hide away from so they can continue either hating us or pretending we don't exist or that that part of us doesn't matter.

"Who cares?"

When people ask this in response to talking about being nonbinary or respecting pronouns, they know transgender people care.

What they're saying is, who cares about transgender people?

For this reason, I'm requesting people not archive anything I've written, though I know I can't enforce this. That includes the Character Analysis and the "(Characters) are nonbinary why it matters" post, which I wrote in such profoundly naive good faith. For every "who cares" I have received over eight years of being transgender in this fandom.

If my identity as a nonbinary person doesn't matter, if nonbinary people don't exist, then neither does the content I made which they feel so entitled to, even while misgendering me.

I can't even think about this series without becoming angry and miserable anymore. That is the lasting, final impression the art has had on me. I can't think about it or the characters without remembering how little transgender people matter to most of the world. I've had to completely cut it out my life. There's no rage as potent as the helpless one. "Who cares?" I can't make people care.

You can't have the creations and art and "content" made by transgender people and our destruction at the same time. And maybe you can't prevent our destruction either, but you sure as hell can use a damn pronoun.

how do conservatives think talking to children works? if a four year old came up to me and said “i’m a cat!!” i would say “really? what makes you a cat?” and they’d say some shit like “i have claws >:)” and i’d be like “oh wow, you do have claws. but wait, i thought cats had pointed ears!” and they’d say “they DO!!!” and then i’d pull up a picture of an elf and ask “is THIS a cat?” and they’d yell “NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”

u wouldn’t say “fucking hell, Emily, get it together. this is the real world”

Tw: parental abuse, transphobia, homophobia

"Why can't you accept me for who I am, Dad?"

Dear Anon, op was more respectful of their identities than you, know your place.

Also on changing characters' sexualities and gender for headcanon purposes, next you're gonna say im being heterophobic for shipping a straight character in a gay pairing.

Its the same logic, and sounds just as stupid.

Sometimes you just want to see your favourite thing in a different font, it doesn't take away from the original, it adds more things to love. Let characters be complex. Let people love characters in their own way.

How can you be a "transmasc Vi/Cait truther" (or whatever it is) and at the same time say that you love lesbian characters? Like you change the gender of canon lesbians to make yourself feel good about being trans, if you do that then I assume that you do not in fact love lesbian characters because you are unable to respect their identities without making them men (or attaching masculine labels onto them).

i absolutely love lesbian characters and i don’t usually attach masculine labels to caitvi. if you look at my posts, I’m usually referring to both of them with she/her pronouns, my fic about them used only she/her pronouns for both of them, etc.

however, butch lesbians exist. transmasc lesbians exist. i’m not doing this to make myself feel better about being trans (i’m genderfluid so idk), I’m doing it because it’s fun and because i can. i respect lesbians a lot. sounds to me like you’re the one who struggles to respect lesbians who don’t fit into your personal definition of what a lesbian has to be.

vi using she/her and he/him pronouns, caitlyn using he/him and they/them pronouns, that doesn’t make caitvi not a lesbian relationship. whatever your “lesbian purity” thing is that you’re trying to do here is kind of silly. at the end of the day, the labels we use are made up and they are as restrictive as we allow them to be. i don’t believe that gender and sexuality labels have to be restrictive, so i make caitvi he/him lesbians.

i hope you can enjoy your versions of characters and learn to let other people enjoy theirs.

Darling, this is a meme account. Do you know how bad it gotta be for a meme account to call you out?

I'm not calling you a transphobe because I disagree with you, although I do, im calling you a transphobe because using the “transness errases women” talking point is transphobic

Because saying they're “perfectly good characters” when you were just calling them toxic and subpar to other ships, only for the sake of them being cis, is transphobic

Trans headcanons don't take away from the character history they work from it.

Its just as valid as seeing love that isn't canon in a story as canon for you, and shipping said characters even if they're not together in the original material. Waiting to see something in art doesn't invalidate what the art is, doesn't stop others from wanting to see something else in said art. Because we're all our own people and we can all get joy from the same sources without hating on others for getting joy in different ways.

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It isn't about yaoi or yuri, its about trans stories getting told through whatever means people want to tell them, and people respecting that.

Everyone has different opinions and Tumblr is a much better place when you interact with those you enjoy the content of instead of to hate on it. There's why we have fandom etiquette in the first place.

Many trans men - myself included - one day identified as cis lesbians, there's nothing wrong with identifying with a character and wanting to see a little bit of yourself in a story you love. It doesn't make caitvi any less, in fact it shows that the story is so beautiful to them more people wanted to see themselves in it.

Men can't be lesbians ok, sure, but a man can have been a lesbian or could become one.

Both things can be true.

Trans people get fewer characters and less story variety, just ship and let ship instead of sending people hate for having their own.

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Have you ever heard of something called a headcanon?

Everyone can look at characters and think what they want is for free, that doesn't take away from the original

There's not just gay ppl and lesbians out there trans ppl can also look at things and go ME just as much. Also, we sure aren't getting as much rep so nothing we do will not be “erasure” in some way

Transphobia isn’t funny

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I'm going to say this loudly, jirai was a term made from mentally ill young adults, they were usually women but they were men as well. It isn't misogynistic for a man to be a jirai. You're just transphobic, and whatever the term is for being misogynistic but for men. Men can be mentally ill too, stop for the love of God try to exclude danshi's just because you're an asshole. Cis, trans, queer whatever you're valid. Don't listen to assholes my jirai brothers.

no because the way republicans think some girls transition just to assault other girls in the bathrooms is fucking ridiculous considering the fact that a literal rapist won the presidency over a woman lmao. someone whos actually a predator wouldnt even need to "pretend to be a girl" to assault other women

do conservatives genuinely think that like. when i was 12 years old i decided to sacrifice my relationship with my family and my teenage years and my everyday joy just so i could eventually piss in the girls bathroom.

how fucking delusional are you. how can you think that any human being would put themselves through all this suffering and pain and loss just to like mock women or something. theres no fucking long con its not a bit im not fucking pretending. im not a man.

are you seriously going to hate me so fucking much that you would overthrow shit like human rights and your own economic comfort just to make sure that i cant be happy as myself. does my friend losing at sports but getting to be happy playing bother you so much that the past two months or whatever are worth it.

literally all this is just so i can be happy. im a fucking woman and nothing you can ever do will change that. its so fucking pathetic that my joy is everyones enemy for some reason. it doesnt have to be this way yall. it really doesnt. stop it

if you told young me that she would grow up in a world that didnt get more tolerant ever and hated her this fucking much she would have killed herself immediately. let kids be happy. give them hope. but also fucking

please just let me be happy for one minute of my life as a woman