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HI LURKERS
here is my entire masterlist and stuff ill be writing in the future.
Supernatural
sam winchester
romance on the side (oneshot)
space between (oneshot)
dean winchester
...
Scream
ethan landry
study breaks (drabble/oneshot? idk)
The 100
...
Marvel
this includes: Avengers, X-Men, Spider-Verse, Guardians of the Galaxy, Young Avengers (Kate Bishop, Wiccan, etc), Thunderbolts.
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Thunderbolts* movie gonna start out with Bucky on the phone watching shit go down and being like "Yeah, I'm gonna have to call you back." Not revealing who he was on the phone with.
The movie plot happens, then with the final end scene Bucky finally gets his phone back out and makes a call and it's like:
"Hey, babe, sorry about that. Shit got crazy."
No response, explosions, gunshots, screaming in the background.
"Sam?"
*Sam's voice, maybe even a cut to him instead of just phone call* "We're gonna need some help! It's fucking Doomsday over here!"
Marvel theme song. Roll credits.
If thunderbolts is bad I will cry in theaters bro 💔
i need thunderbolts to have come out yesterday
Every six months I fall in a huge Marvel fixation.
Usually is because a new film or series I'm interested is coming, but the nearest film I'm excited for is Thunderbolts*, so I don't know why I'm so fixated now.
if i made a server SPECIFICALLY for marvel and fanfic writing, who'd want in?
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I wanted to make a little sketch with Grandpa Raiden, impressed by the song Forevermore, Lord of the lost, but as always I got carried away.
I haven't decided on the color, I like both options.
Thunderbolts plot theory
Ok so i js recently rewatched the og avengers and looking at the stills from the new thunderbolts movie i concocted a theory. stay with me now is this doesnt make sense lol. ok i believe that this movie will mirror the events kinda of the avengers movie. for example:
the battle of Manhattan, it seems like the thunderbolts are gonna have their own battle of Manhattan because if u look at some of the scences in the trailers, the tbolts are entering, leaving and seem to be around avengers tower which may be being rebuilt to be the watchtower for sentry by val.
i believe val is gonna be the nick fury for the thunderbolts. like in the avengers nick is the reason why the avengers all come together to stop loki and the aliens. it seems like val is the boss of some of the tbolts team (yelena seen in bw and john seen in tfatws). also her saying the "the avengers are not coming" may have caused bucky to want to form a team of his own. I believe that she is bringing the team togther to put them in some sort of death trap like the synposis of the movie says (i think the trap may be sentry or void, im excited to see)
now we all know that the most common theory for this movie is that taskmaster is gonna die. like marvel literally spoiled it by not including her in doomsday but having the rest of the team there. i think she is gonna be mirror of that one shield agent( i dont remember his name lmao but i think he was also in the thor movies and was a frind of thor) who died and caused the avengers to group up and fight loki. like it think her death, if it happens, will bring the team together over their common grief. its kinda fucked up that they brought her back js for that if it does happen but we'll she right? ok guys sorry if this messy i wanted to share thoughts with someone but i have friends who are into the mcu tell me what u think!
imagine. sam and bucky will have a really bad argument because bucky still acts extremely protective of him. sam thinks its because he didnt take the serum and bucky thinks hes weak. but its only because bucky loves him too much to see him suffer and he cant bear to lose him. classic fight whatever. BUT THEN bucky has a complete breakdown about how he hasnt felt this way since.... and he trails off but obviously he means steve and while Bucky spills all of this we just see sam's expression soften from anger into quiet understanding and then they silently hug or maybe kiss or smth idk who cares WHO CARES.
sam chilling at home with joaquin, helping him get ready for a date or something i dont know what dads do, and bucky BURSTS through the door, knocking it off its hinges holding all of the thunderbolt members with one arm and yells "WE HAVE NEW KIDS NOW". he also does this with cats. frequently. sam is used to this. bucky broke him.
Thunderbolts* summarized in one sentence
various different flavors of depression
SEBASTIAN STAN as BUCKY BARNES THUNDERBOLTS*
SEBASTIAN STAN as BUCKY BARNES THUNDERBOLTS*
and the answer is yes im annoying and no i will never shut up. now watch these tiktoks.
matt murdock
remus and tonks...
captain america bnw 2
endgame 2 3
cherik and florida
hugh jackman let me bite u 2 3 4
no way home 😥😥
splatty
daenerys targaryen is... the prince who was promised (if u watch got pls watch this edit)
more cherik I CANT I NEED UGH STOP 2
pls do me all day captain
oo that sounded really bratty! 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
lol stucky was never casual hahahah except its not funny
andrew garfield. thats all.
sexy boy rj lupin
like one hour long wanda edits 2 3
guess what else wasnt casual...
i love u bobby 2
my fav lesbian witch (and her show) 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12
thunderbolts 2
marauders
ok so in conclusion i love me some edits!
YES THE FUCK IT IS BABY!!!!!!
get ready for me to be insufferable again. i’d say and for me to be back in my bucky phase, but i never left 😄
I loved The Void so much 😭😭😭 bro has INSANE aura and just captivated me tbh
In light of recent events (cough Thunderbolts trailer cough) I have decided that more of my Marvel doodles deserve to be seen.
Also playing around with how I want to draw these people bc I have a feeling you’ll be seeing more of them.
Initial thoughts: Yelena looks like a goddess, Bob does not want to be here, Alexei and John are vibing together and Bucky’s hair is going through a mid-life crisis
hell yeah Marvel, thank you for finally putting out something that genuinely hypes me up
We often see what we want to see, and we all have our own inherent bias and pattern recognition. That said, I went in cold turkey to the movie Thunderbolts* when my daughter and I went to see it recently. I didn't watch any trailers, avoided spoilers, etc.
And what I saw was me.
Here's My Short Spoiler-Free Review:
I was not at all expecting the amount of depth the story has
There are some very authentic-feeling portrayals of living with mental illness
It was fucking awesome
And My Slightly Longer And Still Not Very Spoilery Review:
As a person who lives with mental illness, I got to see A LOT of what I feel, have felt, have experienced reflected in a certain character's own experiences. And their journey isn’t just an inclusivity checkmark; it’s the core of the movie. I think a lot of people will see themselves reflected here, and by not explicitly stating this character’s diagnosis, they allow the story to include anyone who lives with mental illness, addictions, trauma.
And all of the thoughtful and nuanced handling of mental health notwithstanding, this is just a great movie all around. You should go see it.
Just saw Thunderbolts* for the first time and I’m extremely unwell, please contact me to scream about it.
now that thunderbolts has been released, i'm once again seeing people online responding to complaints that bucky's trauma is never fleshed out, with the following similar responses:
- "his trauma had 10 years to be fleshed out, why are you guys so obsessed with seeing him suffer?"
yeah.. no. bucky may have been on the screen for all six phases but he is rendered absolutely irrelevant after civil war (where - and i'm saying this as somebody who loves civil war bucky - he kinda is just a plot device for steve and tony to have more tension between them).
it's laughable to ever describe his trauma as fleshed our when no character even acknowledges his trauma?? he has gone through the worst horrors imaginable. it's like marvel thinks if they point his trauma out, they realize his "recovery" is near impossible (which is why it wasn't shown on screen). bucky DID have all these years to be fleshed out, but he wasn't. even by the second act of civil war it was like "okay we gotta make them teamup, make bucky stop being rightfully feral and guarded and just have him chill with steve and a bunch of randos who he doesn't know if he tried to murk an hour ago."
i've always adored this scene in civil war. despite having been practically feral, at arms length and desperate to run, once caught, bucky shows that he has regained himself somewhat and accepts the name of his past enough to correct zemo. this one scene gives us so much insight into bucky's psyche.
my favourite part about the bucky in civil war by FAR - aside from that red henley - is the way for the first half that bucky is on edge, has no idea what's going on, he's anxious, guarded, like a volatile, stray dog.
the way he looks at t'challa with shock, then just starts fighting. the way he is guarded with steve, yet comes up behind him, just to lie to him. the way he runs in the tunnels and frantically swerves to avoid being hit by a car here because he just has no fucking clue what's going on yet he's still fighting the fight
one thing about bucky's mcu story is that we never see how he heals. i don't buy for one second that a man who was brainwashed, manipulated, tortured with electroshock, physically abused and spent by far the majority of his life as a weaponized soviet assassin is going to be in any way okay. for christ's sake, this dude should have the final boss ptsd. yet it's nearly wrapped in a bow in some cameos of wakanda. we. never. see. it.
you may have also noticed that a lot of bucky's trauma is not credited to the writing of it, but to sebastian stan's amazing SILENT acting that makes you feel it. seriously, the amount of praise sebastian (rightfully) got for the way he made bucky look tormented is insane. this dude carried it
tfatws was arguably the last chance to do something with bucky - finally, six episodes to focus on his psyche! wowzers! instead, we get the INSULTING storyline that bucky needs to apologise to the people HE hurt and that this also somehow cures his mental health issues, though honestly the show swept around this by laughably not even showing us anything not skin deep. he has nightmares, he's a bit angsty - sure, that's easy to recover from when that's a you show a character going through. it's clear the backstory of bucky was them biting off more than they could chew, and wouldn't fit in with their story, so they condensed it and made it easier to make bucky a sidekick by essentially retconning his past trauma so that instead of having any of the severe mental health issues we expect of bucky, he was instead just. chilling.
so no. i'm not somehow being evil to a character and wanting them to constantly suffer. i realized, walking out of the cinema (spoilers for thunderbolts!!) that the reason i wanted bucky to have a void room is because it would mean the mcu would finally acknlowedge bucky's trauma. because let's be real. the character of the winter soldier, and post winter soldier recovery bucky are so unbelievable different with barely any material for how he got here that he may as well be a different character and not a loved character who i know and connect to the fucking winter soldier movie.
so, by having bucky never acknowledge the winter soldier apart from a quip, it makes it so easy to not have to ever, ever communicate just how he got from point A to point B. i want him to suffer because it means his backstory would finally be acknowledged by him, and others, and it would be cathartic and we'd see how he healed from it instead of the mcu just TELLING us that he healed from it. or even better just having him suddenly be better because the plot requires it (looking at you, second half of civil war)
anyway.. where was i on that civil war point?
you recover from trauma, expecially with the right support system, but trauma changes you. that doesn't have to be a bad thing, but for somebody who went through what bucky did, if he was a real guy he would've found a way to commit suicide a million times over by now, it's only bearing the logic of him being a character on screen that he lives. i think bucky would've been at his best if he fundamentally stayed the way he was for the first half of civil war - constantly guarded, closed off, timid in a way, volatile and willing to fight when needed even though he's just so exhausted of it, because something in him is just urging him to survive. that, at least, would've been way more believable than "completely adjusted, a bit angsty and awkward, skirts around any real discussion of mental health in favour of prancing around how steve rogers something something" like we got in tfatws.
civil war bucky was the last time mcu was willing to establish to us that bucky has FUNDAMENTALLY changed from his experiences, he doesn't go leaping in steve's arms and is clearly constantly on guard, and i think that's important to note because it's so easy to say "well they do acknowledge he's changed and he has trauma, he had the code words erased in wakanda.." but that was not a demonstration of how he was fundamentally forever affected by this trauma at all, it was a one-off point in a series manufactured only because they needed him to be more mentally stable than he'd never be to move the cogs of the plot along. (along with the fact it's clear that somehow erasing the words is meant to heal bucky of all his problems)
so yeah. no, i don't want to see bucky suffering and i am absolutely reasonable for being upset that thunderbolts is just another movie to sweep bucky's trauma and recovery to the side, because we never saw his recovery so the only way we'll ever connect this guy to bucky is if we see. him. acknowledge his past because holy shit he is a different person and i'd love bucky to be this mentally stable if we were shown it
one thing to note is that this dissonance is always made exceptionally clear by things like fanfiction that actually show bucky's trauma and recovery and do it in a way that doesn't shy away from any scary topics, which makes it all the more realistically brutal and cathartic when he recovers. that's why i've never fully gotten past 2016 bucky - because neither did the mcu as it just made a new character, whilst fanfiction writes all the things in the gaps of the original movies, so it also never got past it
i screamed loudly inside the theater
are we still going insane about thunderbolts bc I don’t wanna seem crazy
'cause he's just so cool
Loving how they used the comic design for the new red star ⭐
My mann
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He’s never considered himself to be a religious man. Not in the 40’s and certainly not now. Though….he does feel the slight guilt when he’s with you. Like there really is a big man above wagging his finger because he’s dating a twenty something year old. Dating as a centurion just feels icky. Like touching something sticky, or stepping on a wad of gum. Even the word “boyfriend” makes him cringe. He’s far past the stage of “boy” and he’s sure it makes people expect some college aged brat, and not well…him. He’s a congressman now, dating at his age is…embarrassing to say the least. He feels less embarrassed when you’re giving him kisses in and attention, irrelevant. You got carded when he took you out, carded, he didn’t get checked—well he did just in a judgy sort of way.
He would’ve courted you if he had gotten the chance. Would’ve asked for permission and pick you up to go out to the theatre or to a carnival. Though things never seem to work out the way he wants. He’s rubbing your back as you lie on his chest scrolling on your phone, taking the time to show him something silly that made you laugh. The little tank top you’re wearing isn’t jarring, he’s gotten used to 21st century fashion. Still, he knows, had this been his early twenties it would really make his head spin. You regularly keep him on his toes.
He sighs, which makes you look up at him. “okay?” You ask, he smooths your hair down and nods. “Fine, little sleepy.” He murmurs, getting you to lay your head back down. “You wanna go to sleep?” You ask and he shakes his head, he feels like an old man enough, he doesn’t need a bedtime. You go back to lying down and he feels like a worm again. The softness and smoothness of your skin, god, you aren’t even calloused. Just never worked a day in your life have you? He wants to make sure you never have to. You’re not some midlife crisis, he’s ready to ride or die. Both probably soon, he doesn’t worry about it that much anymore, you’ve done a lot to ease his worries. He’s knows you aren’t a baby, you’re a modern lady, and he’s trying to be your modern man.
credit to @cursed-carmine for dividers