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Sensory overload （ ; ; ）

I hate the world. It’s so hard to function. The big trip yesterday has left me feeling very overwhelmed and overstimulated and now I have another day at college. I feel like I’m two steps away from having a sensory overload! I hate how neurotypical the world is as it’s the most difficult place to function!

I wanna go back home and regress so I can safely cry my eyes out and feel as frustrated and overwhelmed as I want in a safe space. Then I’d have my stuffies for comfort and I could have a nap after all the crying and overwhelming feelings. I wanna be in little space so badly I don’t have a cg and I can’t tell my friends or family cause of what it is. Life feels so difficult for me at the moment and I hate it.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day/night and stay safe!

No better way to express yourself than to vent in your note app

Just walked out of a church meeting because the adults were arguing and being passive aggressive and it was scaring me, might fuck of and never show my face again

The Lord yeeteth and the Lord yoinketh away, and right now he's gambling with my last ounce of patience

Getting hives from stress, gotta love finals 🥲

EDIT: it was FUCKING CHICKENPOX

I have to make a fucking foldable for a major grade in English class, WHY?! I could easily do a multiple page essay with properly cited sources (this project is "so we learn how to cite correctly) like we're sophomores what the fuck do we need to be making a college level career pamphlet for?! Just have us write a damn essay this is so unnecessary and stressful! She thinks just because she gave us a week to do this it's MORE THAN ENOUGH TIME. ITS NOT, she talked every day for a fifth of the period expecting us to pay attention, and I'm in her loudest class and I have fucking ADHD and autism! I can't handle working in that class on a normal day much less one with no structure! And it's not like I can do it at home because it's right before finals so EVERYONE is giving us giant projects and I need sleep! I can't even work on my chrome book because it won't support the apps I need my family doesn't have the extra money to get me a decent computer or laptop and the school library is closed for fucking testing! I was just starting to be healthy and get sleep and eat a decent amount of food at regular times and not replace water with energy drinks and then this shit hits me like a bus! I hate school and I hope whoever makes this system goes through 10 times the mental and physical agony that american students and (most) teachers.

Man I hated school people are mean for no reason I wish I could just go home and draw, school is the only reason my depression gets so out of control, I hate it here I don't want to die I just can't keep living like this

My dog kept me up all night and used my comfort hoodie as a pillow so now I'm tired, angry, furry, and I smell like a dog

Anyone know why the school photographers make you take off your jacket/layered button down or headphones? Like these are things I wear everyday they're apart of me why do I have to take them off?

Who the fuck said it was a good idea to force kids to only have natural hair colors I swear to god I feel like I'm killing myself for someone who doesn't give a shit about me just so they can feel comfortable in their own little world it makes me want to kill myself because of them I hate school

My moms getting married today and "I'm surrounded by idiots."

Almost none of my classmates are self aware and they're irritating as fuck

Why are other people so unaware of their surroundings and other people's space

TW ed

Dont you just love it when your skinny to begin with and then you see a FUCKING CARTOON and want to relapse to look like it even though its physically impossible without being on the brink of death and the only thing you can do is force yourself to finish your dinner that was all ready extremely small cuz you cant handle normal food portions anymore

Time to listen to angsty music and lament my existence

When you have to suppress any sort of self expression for the sake of your neurotypical peers comfort and to not get directly bullied but your dad buys you a chocolate milkshake to make up for it :D

I am experiencing sensory over load and i hate everything

Too… loud…

Vent: Everything is way too loud! My autism makes me sensitive to noise, I get overstimulated easily and my head feels like it’s being slowly crushed. I’m so sick and tired of my daily headaches from my classmates! Earlier today I had to have lunch in my classroom because when I stepped into the cafeteria, my already aching headache became so bad, I became lightheaded and dizzy, and I started crying… I just wanted to scream and disappear. I hate many things about myself this is just one of my biggest problems that people love to make fun of me for… one of my classmates even said… “why can’t you just be normal?”

People not having panic attacks is such a foreign concept to me. Like... you mean to tell me that you can just go into a noisy, crowded store and just be fine? You can engage in a conversation with multiple people without snapping at them? Weird

It happens a lot at work and at least I have one friend who can tell when It is building up and let me go calm myself down some and I always apologize a lot afterwards.

I have a short fuse when it comes to things like this. They’ll be too loud or something and I’d snap and tell them to stop…

Neurodivergent Girl

sorry for how I acted when there were multiple noises happening at the same time

Does anyone with food sensitivities ever get food they like delivered and after meticulously looking through it to make sure it's safe to eat you take a bite and feel the crunch of an onion. Me: Screaming, crying, gagging, heaving, entire body crinkles like aluminum foil.

Just me? ok cool

Me whenever people be talking about dumb shit at work, like bitch I DON"T GIVE A SINGLE FUCK ABOUT YOUR LIFE, GO AWAY, then I calm down and feel a little bad, ONLY a little though

I recently got noise cancelling headphones because I have a lot of sensory issues and misophonia. I have been hesitant to use them because I don't want them to be a crutch but that's stupid. If you need to wear headphones to do the dishes because the sound of silverware clanking together makes you feel like dying then do it. If you need that aid then use it.

Me: “I can’t be autistic, I don’t have sensory issues.”

Also Me-

- The person who told me to try freezing grapes is my enemy.

- *Physically gagging from trying to eat a freeze dried strawberry*

- “I can’t sleep, my shirt is on.”

- This yogurt had pieces of fruit in it so I will let it spoil in the back of my fridge and die of starvation before I eat it.

- If anyone touches me right now I will become a safety hazard

- *Throwing myself off of furniture*

- Something is crinkling SOMEWHERE in the next room and if I don’t find it and destroy it I will never sleep again.

- This person’s headlights were too bright for 0.5 seconds and now I will have a migraine for the next 4 hours.

- My hands are wet MY HANDS ARE WET MAKE IT STOP

- What do you mean these clothes are dry? They’re clearly still damp, how do you not feel it? They’re still damp!

- These two rocks rubbed against each other and made a noise and I think I may have broken a tooth from clenching my jaw so hard

- If I am forced to wear jeans for more than 0.3 seconds upon entering my home I’m going to start crying

Feel free to add your own

Un

Like my hearts beating there

I put my hands to my ears

In silent noise

The rumble of muscle

My eyes dialate

My mouth is dry

Like im going to die

I wait in anticipation of silence

To wash over a million hearbeats

I close my eyes

But fades of blue so faint, so fucking faint as nothing

Is still something

Im my meditation of death

Death illudes me

And i will never see her coming.