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Do you ever think that the planets just look at all the stuff that is happening on earth and go, "Damn the fuck happened to you?"

We drove out of the city towards the river. My friend was concentrating on driving, but I could feel her worried and warm gaze on me from time to time.

I cried in the passenger seat and just kept repeating to her, "Well, what an idiot I am... I mean, there's not a single reason not to think that I'm an idiot..."

Her voice was calm, soft, even maternal (I had no such support in my life, but I instinctively felt it). "You're not an idiot. Don't even think like that... You just have a very big and kind heart... You share your warmth, there's enough for everyone, Dear. You see... For your family, your friends, and even..." here she stopped talking for a second and added, "you have to keep sharing and..."

"I don't want to," I whispered to her, clearly aware of why.

"You are so... And your heart is so... You have to keep sharing... Things will get better..."

At that moment I was so grateful to her and to myself that I wasn't alone.

One day I'll tell the whole truth about this trip...

One day I'll probably write something about it...

But today...

Today it's important to breathe, to fill my lungs with cold air.

Does anyone think that Reginald did log tests on the children , like voice logs so he keeps track of how far they are training their powers and that. How do you think he would start the voice log , also who would have the most like training tests on them??

Like would also talk about the side effects of each power and how he would "tackle" them

I think he would ,especially with Christopher , man is literally a cube

Please comment your thoughts on this, cause I'm curious about if anyone else thought this (probably not)

hear me out guys. bottom!will solace isn’t just hot. it’s a full-on character study.

we always see him written as the calm one. the steady one. the one who holds everything together. and that absolutely makes sense—he’s the camp’s head medic, he keeps people alive, he’s responsible, dependable, always putting others first. he’s the one who drags Nico out of the shadows and doesn’t flinch. he’s strong. he’s in control.

but what if all of that control is exhausting?

what if Will—who spends all day making decisions, fixing people, managing crises—actually wants to let go when he’s with someone he trusts? not because he’s weak or submissive in a simplistic way, but because it’s the only time he gets to stop holding the world up. it’s the only time he gets to focus on what he feels instead of what he needs to do.

he’s a child of Apollo, raised to shine, to soothe, to be the golden boy. and that can be a heavy role. he carries so much pressure, not just from the world but from himself. he’s the kind of person who people expect to be okay all the time, who makes himself okay for other people. that builds up. and the more he tries to control it all, the more you know he probably craves a space where he doesn’t have to.

and that’s where bottom!Will becomes something intimate and powerful. not just sexy, but safe. because to give up control, you need trust. to let someone else take the lead, you need to feel completely seen and accepted. that kind of surrender becomes emotional. vulnerable. and no one makes more sense for that than Nico.

because Nico is the one person who doesn’t expect anything from Will except for him to be real. he’s not afraid of Will’s darkness or messiness. he doesn’t want him to be perfect. and Will knows that. he trusts that. so of course he’d feel safe enough with Nico to give up the act, to stop being the healer or the bright one or the caretaker, and just exist in someone else’s hands for once.

that’s not weak. that’s not soft in a diminishing way. it’s deep. it’s powerful. it’s one of the clearest signs of love and trust we could get from a character like Will.

so yeah. give me bottom!Will who shudders when the tension leaves his body. who’s used to carrying everyone else and finally gets to be held. who gets to feel instead of fix. who gets to fall apart a little and know he won’t be left behind.

to me, that’s not just smut. that’s a love story.

@onetiny-inkdropuniverse I know u share my vision!!

Everytime I say a nice thing about myself I think “believe it!” in a naruto voice in my head

I don’t believe my body is a temple. My body is a piece of art and I am its artist. I dress it up like a paper doll as I see fit. Makeup and hair dye and tattoo ink are the paints on my palette. I carve it like a marble statue and sculpt it like clay until I see my form emerge. My appearance is mine to control and delight in

I think if Dazai got a psych diagnosis it would be Borderline Personality Disorder. Hear me out. He hits just about every sympton listed on the Mayo Clinic's website. Suicidal and feelings of emptiness are shown throught BSD. We see him being involved in risky behavior (gambling, drinking, literally putting himself in dangerous situations/harms way). Inappropriate, strong anger is a bit harder to catch since his isn't physical or loud like Chuuya, instead Dazai tends to get sarcastic and bitter as we see in 15 or he gets "even," if someone one ups him he attempts to destroy them as we see with Fyodor and as shown with the quote Oda had about Dazai’s enemies. His relationships are rather unstable (don't think anyone will argue with me there) and there is an argument that he has abandonment issues which is why he keeps people at arms length, kinda a "you didn't leave me, I pushed you away" deal. If you're paying attention you can also catch when he's manic and when he's masking. Most of the time, he's masking. One exception is at Lupin Bar with Oda and Ango. He's not as over the top like when he's masking, but he's also much more excitable than usual. It's a subtle difference and I've found that it's not shown in the anime as much as it is the novels.

Please note: I say this as someone who is diagnosed neurospicy, so my personal experience may be at play in my analysis.

there are two sides of the Danny phantom Phandom

the ‘let’s be canon compliant but not Phantom Planet, we’re here for a good time ^^’

and then the ‘The ghost of a 14-year-old boy has to hide from his parents, who want nothing more that to destroy him’

It’s funny really

I hate the feeling that my mouth is too dry, the feeling that my tongue doesn't fit in my mouth. Being aware of my body, having a healthy nervous system is a blessing compared to not having control over my body. But the feeling that I AM my body, what I am made of, how chemical reactions work, feeling the weight of my brain, the awareness of wet bones, itchy skin, sweating in cold rooms. How my skin sticks to me... I probably should be grateful for a healthy body, but I'm kind of not. It is most likely part of growing up. If only I could be a cloud though..

At the same time I love the feeling of tummy filled with warm food for example tomato soup. I love tomato soup with rice! I like feeling the weigh of my cats when we cuddle. I live scent of the fresh air. I love hearing voice of my close ones. I enjoy satisfying feeling of cracking bones. I love being alive, I only need to adapt.

I even add a dot at the end of the sentence 🤓☝️

OH GOSH CONSCIOUSNESS