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not to shit on anyones parade but as both a kinnie/system can i say this?

stop using system terms singlet kinnies!!!!!!!!!! it both a) can really mix up people with systems who don't know it (as me who thought some of my fictives were a kin, yes, it can happen) and not to undermine what a kinnie goes through, it really butchers how people see the both of us. some of these terms are exclusive (and professionally used) terms for systems

DON'T say switching; DO SAY shift

DON'T call your kins a system

DON'T or TRY TO avoid terms like plural or things like that

PLEASE KNOW: you're NOT a fictive if you're a singlet. Fictives are NOT kin terms

Hello, Tumblr!

today, we’re gonna be talking about my head cannons (in my Transformers AU) about BlitzWing! Yay!! [below keep reading, it’s a long one]

Lets get one thing clear…I DO NOT HAVE D.I.D.!! I NEVER HAVE, AND ONLY KNOW ONE PERSON FROM THAT ONE CAMP THAT ONE TIME!! I DO NOT SPEAK FOR, OR REPRESENT ANYONE WHO HAS D.I.D.!! PLEASE DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH AND DO NOT TAKE WHAT I SAY AS FACTUAL ABOUT ALL DID INDIVIDUALS!! Any refrenced information is mainly from [here]

Next, I’m not sure if BlitzWing in TFA is actually stated to have DID, but in my AU, we’re making it some-kind of thing like that, but with alien war robots in space. The TFA BlitzWing (seems to) switch based on emotion, but to make it more accurate, that won’t be how it works in this au.

Finally, to not misrepresent anyone, (As a person with very mild childhood trauma,) We will not go into depths about why BlitzWing has this. The only ‘hint’ I’ll give is it’s one of a bajillion reasons he hates the Quintesson, and the main reason that sends him into a rage.

Lets set some basic information for BlitzWing first

-BlitzWing has three alters, though the alters and BlitzWing doesn’t give them names. Mostly, others will just call all the alters BlitzWing. In addition to this, all Alters have understood they are one body, and know that they are all tied to one form. BUT!! Just to make it easier to understand in this post, we’ll be calling them by their main emotion, Icy refers to the base personality, Anger refers to the more aggressive personality, and Crazy to the…crazy personality. (Though, crazy might be offensive in this way, I hope we’re not becoming Twitter and making everything a big ass deal.)

-They choose to refer to sleeping/recharging as ‘a meeting’ or something similar to that. Because when sleeping/recharging, all the alters meet in the void that is their head and talk until they get back up and one of them fronts for a while.

And…Lets meet the people!

Normal/Base/Regular BlitzWing

Thoughtful, Observant, Straightforward, Calculated, Calm, Stern, Intelligent, Quick-Thinking, Reserved, Creative, Cooperative, Antisocial, Serious, Mature, Reliable, Blunt, Diplomatic.

He’s AroAce, and sees love in any way as a distraction for their important position. However, he does acknowledge his alters do not feel the same way about this, and doesn’t prevent them from seeking it out.

He hates functionalism, and generally wants to free all cybertronians from any kind of oppression, to be free and do as they wish with no judgment. Not only was he oppressed because he couldn’t control his alters (in the past), but he was also oppressed for what he used to do for work [unspecified].

He struggles to remember all of what his alters do, but he can remember snippets of what happened. Not even ShockWave can force him to remember them. Along with that, he also struggles to remember some of the trauma they have, remembering his work and being with the triple changers, but not explicitly what happened. But, he remembers enough to keep it away from Crazy.

As the Decepticon’s tradesman (or tradesperson? Tradesmech? Idfk), he’s gotten good at being straightforward and unmoving. He may not be Swindle levels of bargaining, but he knows a bad trade when he sees one. He knows exactly what anything is worth, and what is best to risk.

Though he keeps a face a seriousness and holds emotions back to keep his profession appearance, there is a part under it all—usually only reserved for his alters and special friends—that wants some kind of relax, to not have to be serious all the time, though his way of being unserious is being boring. (He doesn’t think it is, but it is to others.) He wants to do art just for fun, even if it just doesn’t many any kind of sense. But his other main priorities is keeping his alters safe and content, so he likely won’t get to any time soon.

He’s good friends with SkyWarp, having been for a while, though he doesn’t have anything romantic with them. He knows they identifies as a femme, but in all honestly, he couldn’t care about it. It doesn’t mean anything to him, but it’s not going to affect him.

Anger/Emotional/Persecutor

Strong, Firm, Incisive, Irritable, Emotional, Irrational, Inconsistent, Illiterate, Dauntless, Independent, Protective, Critical thinking, Thorough, Unpopular, Brave, Serious.

He says he knows why they have three personalities, but he absolutely refuses to say why, and ShockWave wasn’t able to find anything while in this alter, as all three of them have the same memories from their past, and it seems to be erased and/or corrupted beyond recognition.

He can be triggered into coming out by any mention or seeing any figure or picture that looks like or similar to the Quintessons. He is usually sent into a blind rage by it, and if—hypothetically—a human showed him an image of the Quintessons, that human would by nothing more than a puddle on the floor in the next two seconds.

tentacles also make him uncomfortable (especially ones from the Morphobots since they look very similar to Quintesson ones).

On the surface, he’s rude to everyone, especially sparklings. (The living embodiment of the “Yoo Xan Get Your Boy Dawg” meme) He’s upset by nearly everything, and is hardly ever in a good mood. Nobody really tries to talk to him or get in his way, especially because they know how badly he’ll react.

He’s a good solider, being strong enough to overpower most, thorough with his kills, brave enough to dive into any situation, and treating it with seriousness, but he likes to work on his own, and will get more upset with any kind of taunting or teasing. Though no matter his anger, he’ll always be precise.

With battle smarts comes a downside, and his downside is his illiteracy. He does feel embarrassed he’s the only alter who can’t read, but he doesn’t know that a lot of Decepticons share the same problem. (Maybe not ‘i literally can’t read a single thing on this page’, but certianly ‘uhhh…One….Fisuh…Twoh…Fisuh…’)

His only close friend is AstroTrain, as they both fought (Autbots and each other) on Earth, with a lot of time to spare. Though, he only sees him as a friend. He might be willing to give romantics a shot, but he doesn’t know, as nobody would be willing to do that. (More than one reason why)

Crazy/Childish

Kidish, Commanding, Carefree, Creative, Blissful, Uplifting, Annoying, Intolerant, Energetic, Adventurous, Jovial, Effeminate, Irritable, Clingy, Venal, Messy, Innocent, Undisciplined.

Unlike the other personalties, he feels a much larger range of emotions. He can be angry, calm (as much as crazy can be), but he can also be sad, happy, bored, scared, and will love anyone and anything. And since he’s the most emotional, it’s a lot harder for the other alters to take over when he’s fronting, and they have to catch him off guard (crying, sleeping, etc) to get control back, and keep him down for a while.

He was suppressed while in the hold of the Quintessons, both Icy and Anger not wanting him to come out and be ruined by what was happening, and they somehow managed to do that for years.

His friend is BumbleBee, yes the autobot BumbleBee. They met during the earth wars, and ever since, He’s been enamored by him, even bringing him to his base and accidentally making him a prisoner. (He had good intentions)

In human terms, he’s very dog-like. He’s clingy to anybody who’s nice to him, overly happy, energetic, playful, and messy. Looking at their room, it’s clear BlitzWing lets Crazy out the most there, probably because he keeps him cooped up in his head for long periods, and their room is the one place where BlitzWing is fully comfortable letting him go wild in. He’s drawn on the walls, has his things all over the room, but the one place HE KNOWS not to go near, is their shared self, where all three personalities share VERY PERSONAL things to remember.

He isn’t disciplined by the Decepticons, being treated more as a child than an actual member, knowing eventually he’ll switch back to a different, more competent one. He’s easily bribed to doing anything, but doesn’t always get what he’s promised because usually they’ll switch before they have to. (Usually convincing him to do missions and jobs.)

ALSO because he isn’t disciplined, he doesn’t understand what anything he does is wrong, unless the alters go out of their way to tell him. If someone ignores him, refuses to do things with him, or doesn’t let him do things, he’ll get upset. (Though more times than not, he doesn’t get his way anyways.)

He assumes that anyone who’s even slightly nice to him really likes him. To anybody who isn’t firm or stands up to him, he will not shut up, will not let go, and he has no dignity for himself.

so, that’s all we got so far! This post will be updated if new information comes about, and if anyone does have DID and wants to correct me on something, please do so! I don’t want to offend any of you! I strive to be well informed!

Alter Fun Fact #1

Lyrics from "Everybody Likes You" by Lemon Demon

Darnell wears rose tinted glasses!

We think he might have NPD, but it's very strange because no one else in our system acts anything like that. He's also very stereotypical and exaggerated so at first I was hesitant to say he did... but now I'm starting to think that's mainly because he has no social skills whatsoever and has barely talked to anyone outside of our system. If that is the case, it's really interesting how disorders can present differently in systems!

Either way, the tinted glasses represent the unrealistic "lens" through which he sees the world. He automatically assumes he's very important and likeable to everyone, and entitled to their attention. He doesn't seem to understand why this isn't the case and gets frustrated when things don't work out the way he wants them to.

We're starting to understand why he acts like this though and hopefully with some patience we'll work it out ^^

When you struggle with identity loss so you just adopt that as your identity.

Me: Scrolling thru Tumblr

Theo: Fucking fronts specifically to make me go back and like a post I didn't care enough to like myself

And that's how literally every post on our feed was liked.

Do any other systems just... like... look through stuff they made/said before they knew they were a system and cringe so hard?

Like. Personally, we made up an entire alternative explanation for what we were to avoid being associated with alters... but uh, funny story, here we are now :]

Bart has DID theory

Aha this is a long one... Adding onto my post a little bit ago cause I was on the train and didn't have enough rant energy-

Bart has eidetic memory, or Hyperthymesia, or photographic memory, whatever works for you. He remembers everything he's ever read, seen, or heard, but in some of the comic strips, it's him being confused about a certain series or event that happened, like he didn't recall it almost, which is almost impossible due to his advanced memory. One of the most common symptoms of Dissociative Identity Disorder is memory gaps when in a different personality. You have no idea how excited I am about this cause I have DID and positive representation, yes please. When I find the comic strips I'm talking about I'll repost and add them in but I'm on a rampage rn. Not even sorry.

Bart is known to have mood swings throughout the entire Impulse series, where he gets grumpy or pouty, things like that, but that childish nature could actually be a personality. He could feel robbed of his childhood since he couldn't "live it" due to his situation growing up, so he creates an entire persona to live like a child in his teenage body. Everyone always brushes it off to him being "a speedster", and the fact that he is ALSO supposed to represent a character with Autism and his ADHD plus ADD, it all kinda adds up, because he switches into this person sometimes that's sarcastic and has a more bleak outlook. He still is always there for his friends, even if they underappreciate the HECK out of him, but it wouldn't make sense in the sense that he's silly only because of his Hyper-changing Autism. AUTISM ISN'T A PERSONALITY PEOPLE. Honestly? The excuse that it's because he's a speedster doesn't add up either. Being a speedster can make him bored easily and he has a hyperglycemia diet where he has to eat full meals every two hours, but it doesn't explain why he so suddenly shifts into entirely new moods. being moody is one thing, but being Bart is a whole new can of worm on strings.

I think one of the biggest things to show this is when Jerico shot his knee using the body of Deathstroke. Before the incident, he never wanted to take up Wally's mantle because he thought it was disrespectful and he didn't deserve it, but after he was shot he took no hesitation in taking up the suit. That entire comic screwed me over because: 1, no one touches my baby Bart. 2, everyone was so rude to him like 24/7?? To BART of all people. 3, that gunshot would've done a LOT more damage then what they diagnosed him. A SHOTGUN was TWO INCHES from his knee and blast him from that space and they gave him a prosthetic kneecap? Excuse me, there'd be nothing LEFT to ATTATCH IT TO, but that's a rant for another time. What I'm getting at here is he wanted to exact his revenge on Jerico, which is typical, I would too if someone capped my knee. But he read the ENTIRE SAN FRANSICO LIBRARY IN ONE SITTING!! Bart, who HATES sitting in one place reading anything that isn't a comic read an entire LIBARAY and not some normal one, this one was MASSIVE. He learned everything about the human nervous system and used it against Slade to his advantage, before it was revealed it was actually Jerico.

SO, he took on the Kid FLash mantle, something he said he wouldn't do. He read an entire library in one sitting, something he wouldn't noramlly do. He became incredibly serious about his mission, something he normally isn't. His kid Flash persona is not him. His trauma from the experience added with his stress must've forced a new one to form, since he already Had his "Impulse" persona it was easy.

Bart Allen has DID and no one can change my mind.

tw! vent below the cut

i just wanna talk to someone.

have a real, honest, personal conversation. not one that only lasts a few seconds.

maybe that's because nobody wants to talk to me.

maybe im too boring, or too much.

maybe im too weird or too dry.

maybe its just all my fault that nobody wants to talk to me.

im sorry that i cant be normal. im sorry im imperfect and just wrong. im sorry im not made up to your expectations

i really want to be "human" what does that even mean?

like everyone else

but i guess i wasnt built for that

fictive introject list

didn't wanna cram them all into my bio so here's who you might see me project as:

Sunny (Omori)

Basil (Omori)

Kel (Omori)

Hero (Omori)

Aubrey (Omori)

Suguru Geto (Jujutsu Kaisen)

Satoru Gojo (Jujutsu Kaisen)

Tsukasa Tenma (Project Sekai)

Hikaru (The Summer Hikaru Died)

So happy for you guys, there’s nothing beautiful than been with someone you love and feeling loved as well❤️🏳️‍🌈

So... We Got Married! 🎀

Soo happy to be finally married to my beautiful wife Zoey 🩷

Sempre Fidelis Mea Mollis Regina Puella

I hate it whenever people say “mental health matters!” Until you have a disorder that their neurotypical brains can’t understand. Because the second you tell them about it and it doesn’t fit their romanticized versions of the disorder, they look at you as if you have three heads.

can anyone else relate to this problem? :(

shoutout people who feel too plural for singlets and too singlet for plurals. it can suck to be out of place, i get it.

shoutout people who use "personalities", "emotions", "identities", "parts", or similar, i do this too. none of us are really sentient enough to use anything else.

shoutout systems and such who are too blurry to tell who they are. this is what we are like. we almost never have a sense of identity, and even when we do, it's extremely vague. we can't notice switches and we don't feel any different from anyone else.

...and more i haven't mentioned.

FELT CUTE, MIGHT DELETE LATER

Okay, we love and hear you out, but, please, we beg of you, not the puns-

Please-

You don’t understand, we have a sans alter-

you’ll give him iDEAS-

aaAA-

when there's fighting in headspace......... call that an altercation

Happy Disability Pride Month! Sorry for being five months late. We promise we started it on time and planned to release it on time. There has been a LOT going on, but I’m happy to report that it’s mostly been good. We haven’t had the spoons to finish this comic, but now it’s finally done! As always, we hope you all enjoy this one! Image description at the bottom.

[Image Description:

Panel 1: The words “HAPPY DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH” are written over the disability pride flag.

Panel 2: The top of the panel says, “Whether affected by other disabilities or acting on its own, DID is a strange disability.” There are three boxes. In the first, a person with light skin and reddish almost-shoulder-length hair is standing with eir hands over eir face. The words “Please don’t let me split an introject of them” are written several times. In the second box, a guy with light skin and short light brown curls is standing with a thought bubble above his head. The bubble says, “*Thoughts that I can’t put into words*” He is saying, “I have dissociative identity disorder. I’m not Ao. My name is Holden, and I use he/him pronouns.” The third box is made to look like a screen. There are three smaller boxes inside of it. They read, “My Simply Plural”/“Is so complex”/“And I organize it for fun.”

Panel 3: In the top left corner, there is a shape resembling a dark gray cloud. Inside of it, at the top, the text reads, “So much splitting…” Beneath it, there are six different messy outlines of a person’s head and shoulders. Beneath that are the words, “And we latch onto media, so… introjects.” In the top right corner, there is a black rhombus with white cracks. There is a box toward the top that reads, “And, of course…” At the bottom of the rhombus, there is another box, which reads, “…things happened that made me this way. And DID isn’t the only disability I got from those things.” At the bottom of the panel, a person with medium brown skin, brown eyes, black hair, and black glasses stares slightly downward. The words above them read, “Try interacting with your source IRL. Makes us feel guilty, even if we get along with them.” There is a thought bubble next to them that reads, “He doesn’t know who I am, or even that I have this disorder.” A box next to them shows an arrow pointing to him that reads “Leon (they/he).”

Panel 4: In the top left corner, there is a a round shape with a double helix outline. Inside, there is a somewhat unclear gray outline of a person’s head and shoulders with the words, “WHO AM I???” written at the top. In the top right corner, there is a pair of blue eyes, a nose, and an expressionless mouth. It is duplicated many times in the surrounding area, overlapping it. The duplications are all somewhat transparent. Above that, the text reads, “(Hopefully, I’ll make a full comic about dissociation someday- that’s what this represents)”. At the bottom are a pair of light hands. The outline of the hands is not properly connected to the fill color. On the hands are the words, “My hands… …are so weird.”

Panel 5: There are two boxes. In the top one, the words, “The guilt…” are written at the top. Under that, there is a person with light skin, brown eyes, and dark brown hair with one hand over her face, covering their eye. She is saying, “WHY was I like that back in middle school???” Next to them, there is text with an arrow that reads, “Elizabeth, she/they (not exactly what she goes by… it’s complicated).” In the second box, there is text at the top that reads, “The realizations…” Under that, Elizabeth is there, with both hands over her eyes, saying, “Wait… my source *was* involved in all that messed up stuff back in middle school. Why couldn’t I accept that she hurt me?” On the right side of the panels, written in big letters and running vertically, are the words, “AND SO MUCH MORE”.

Panel 6: The outline of this panel is a double helix on each side, each a different color of the system flag (dark gray, light blue, light green, yellow). The panel reads, “I know we don’t usually talk about the bad stuff on here, but since this is for disability pride month, we wanted to talk about the disabling aspects of DID. This isn’t everything, of course. Perhaps I’ll talk about more of it in the future. I didn’t go into a lot of detail. Perhaps I will in the future. We hope everyone had a good disability pride month, and we apologize again for being so late.”

End image description.]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!

Image descriptions at the bottom of the post.

We decided to make something for pride month featuring the alters featured in previous comics

The alters in the first image, from left to right:

Ao, Ruby, Bay, Natalie*, Raina**, Inflexible, Grey, Jayde.

The alter at the top of the second image is Rhombus. The one flying on the left side is Omara, and the one in zir arms is Jenny. The one flying on the right side is Worlds, and the one on their back is Kelly. The ones on the bottom of the image, from left to right are Cristina, Jules, Alicia, Eugenia, and Mercedes.

*Natalie once went by Sodium on this blog, but she recently changed her name, so she and her source no longer share a name. Therefore, she longer has to use a pseudonym.

**Raina once went by Radium on this blog, but she recently changed her name, so she and her source no longer share a name. Therefore, she no longer has to use a pseudonym.

And yes, all five at the bottom are from the same source. It was not fully intentional.

Happy Pride Month, everyone! Figured my timing was okay as long as I finished it at some point this month.

Some of these are based off of real shirts/jokes, but some are not. I WISH I could actually buy some of these.

I do have other comics that I’m working on, but IDK how much progress I’m going to make on them in the near future, because ADHD keeps making me start new ones instead of finishing the ones I’ve already started.

So yeah. We hope you enjoy!

[Begin image description:

For both images: Both are drawings and aren’t super realistic. There are people in both. All are facing forward. All are smiling. All mentioned pins worn by them are round. All writing on the pins is in black.

Image 1: The background is sea foam green. Several people are standing in the lower half of the image.“HAPPY PRIDE!!” is written above them. Each letter is a different stripe of the intersex inclusive progress flag, starting with the intersex flag and ending with the color purple. All letters are outlined in black.

Description of people from left to right:

Ao has light skin, blue eyes, and reddish almost shoulder length hair. Ey is wearing a white pin that says ey/eir, a black shirt that says “QUEER,” with each letter being a different stripe of the trans flag, and a trans flag around their neck.

Ruby has light skin, short dark brown hair, and brown eyes. She has a black shirt with a white Greek letter alpha, the symbol for ambiamory, a red unbuttoned flannel, a small butch flag (specifically the orange one) coming up from behind her. On the flag’s stick is a white she/her pin.

Bay has light skin, short black hair, gray eyes, and black glasses. She is wearing a gray short-sleeved shirt, a necklace with a clock on it, black pants, and blue and silver triangle earrings. On her necklace, she has two pins. One is a white she/her pin, and the other is the omnisexual flag. She is blushing. She is holding Natalie’s hand.

Natalie has light skin, shoulder-length brown hair, and greenish gray eyes. She is wearing black pants, a short-sleeved black shirt with the words, “CAN’T EVEN THINK STRAIGHT” written in periwinkle, and a white she/her pin. She is blushing. Besides holding Bay’s hand, she is also holding Raina’s hand.

Raina has light skin, blonde hair that is past shoulder length with all hair beyond shoulder length tucked behind her shoulders, and green eyes. She is wearing black pants, a white she/her pin, and a short-sleeved shirt that is a combination of the demisexual and demiromantic flags (shown horizontally). The purple stripe is on top of the green stripe. Additionally, the left (from the perspective of the viewer) sleeve is purple, and the right sleeve is green. She is blushing.

Inflexible is nonhuman. They have dark blue skin with small, lighter wavy lines/swirls and short medium green hair with thin lighter green lines, and green eyes. They are holding a white flag with black text that says “They/Them.” They are wearing medium blue jeans and a black long-sleeved shirt with a drawing of the close-up Megamind meme on it. The shirt also says, “NO GENDER?” in white letters above the Megamind drawing.

Grey is nonhuman. Their entire appearance is grey. Their clothes, hair, and skin are the same color, making them indistinguishable. Their eyes appear closed, but aren’t. He has messy shoulder-length hair. He is wearing a white they/he pin and an aroace flag pin with a drawing of garlic bread on it.

Jayde is nonhuman. They have bright red skin, bright green eyes, and bright purple hair with thin darker purple lines forming a part. They are holding a white flag that reads, “They/Them” in black text. They are wearing a light gray long-sleeved shirt with a big oriented aroace flag shaped like a heart on it.

Image 2: The background is sea foam green. At the top of the image, Rhombus is shown upside down from the shoulders up. They have white skin with a vertical black rhombus in the center that reaches from their forehead to their chin. Their facial expression is not a human one, as their facial features are shaped slightly different from that of a human. They are not technically smiling. They also do not have eyebrows. They have black hair that goes past their shoulders. On one side, the hair is swept to the front. Their hair does not behave as if Rhombus were upside down. A black arrow pointing to them with “They/Them” written in black sits on their right side. Beneath them, the “HAPPY PRIDE!!” from the first image is below them. However, it is much smaller than in the first image.

On the left side of the canvas, Omara is suspended in midair. Omara is nonhuman. Ze has black skin, orange eyes with white waves in them, black curly hair that does not reach zir shoulders, and black wings that resemble angel wings. Zir hair has a very thin orange band in the middle. Ze is wearing off-white shoes that somewhat resemble ballet slippers, and an off-white dress with thick straps. On each strap, there is a pin. The one on the left is the sapphic flag, and the one on the right is a white ze/zir pin. Ze is blushing, but the blush looks pale orange. Ze is holding Jenny horizontally.

Jenny has light skin, light blue eyes, light blonde hair in a ponytail that reaches past her shoulders, and round black glasses. She is wearing white shoes with purple laces, pants that are the colors of Gilbert Baker’s 9-stripe flag (it’s the original 8-stripe pride flag with a lavender stripe on top), and a long-sleeved shirt with the colors of the demisexual flag (shown vertically). On the shirt is a white she/her pin. She is blushing.

On the right side of the canvas, Worlds is flying horizontally in the corner. Worlds is a vampire. She has light gray skin, black sunglasses with dark red lenses and a strong glare in the top right corner of the glasses, light brown hair that ends in a curl and goes just past her shoulders, and large black bat wings with the bones outlined in white. They are wearing a lighter gray shirt with an unbuttoned tan jacket with four pockets over it, two with flaps over the pocket. Sticking out of one pocket is a dark red flag with black text that reads, “GAY VAMPIRE.” On the stick of the flag is a white she/they pin. They are blushing. Kelly is on their back, with one hand on their side under their arm and one hand on their other shoulder.

Kelly has brown skin, brown eyes, and black hair. She is wearing a hoodie that is the colors of the bisexual flag with black drawstrings. On the hoodie is a white she/her pin. She is blushing.

Underneath all this are five people. From left to right:

Cristina has light skin, dark green eyes, and dark brown hair that goes past her shoulders and is tucked behind their shoulders. They are wearing black pants and a black short-sleeved shirt with a small pansexual flag on a stick on it. On the shirt is a white she/they pin.

Jules has light skin, short brown hair, and dark brown eyes. He is wearing white pants and a black short-sleeved shirt with a semicircle shaped demiboy LGBallT character (which is just a semicircle covered in the demiboy flag with white eyes outlined in black). On the shirt, in a position that makes it look like the LGBallT character is wearing it, is a white he/they pin. He is blushing. He is holding Alicia’s hand.

Alicia has light skin, green eyes, and blonde hair pulled into an early 1900s madonna coiffure (not 100% sure this is correct- it’s not drawn well, and I got the name from the Internet). She is wearing black pants and a white short-sleeved shirt. The top of the shirt reads “PAN” on the top, and “CAKES” on the bottom, both in black. In between the words is a stack of pancakes in pansexual colors. The bottom pancake is light blue, the middle one is yellow, and the top one is pink. They are stacked on a plain white plate with a black outline. On the top pancake is a pool of syrup with a square of butter in the middle. On the shirt is a white she/they pin. They are blushing.

Eugenia has light skin, brown eyes, and dark brown hair pulled into a style resembling an early 1900s everyday pompadour (again, not drawn well, and getting this from the Internet, so could be wrong). She is wearing a white long-sleeved shirt with a drawing of a pansexual-colored cat on it. The cat is pink with blue patches, and has yellow whiskers, a yellow mouth and nose, and yellow eyes with blue pupils. On the shirt, above the car is a white she/any pin. They are holding a white sign with black text by a brown stick. The sign reads, “Proud Big Sis Of A Non-Binary Sib.”

Mercedes has light skin, dark brown eyes, and dark brown hair styled similarly to an early 1900s everyday pompadour, but with no bun (again, not drawn well, from the Internet, could be wrong). They are wearing a dark gray shirt with “QUEERHET” written vertically. The first four letters are the colors of the non-binary flag, and the last four are the colors of the heterosexual flag. On his shirt is a she/they/he pin with the colors of the non-binary flag as the background of the pin.

END ID]

New comic! This is a collaboration with the wonderful @sketchbook-stars!

Our story is on the left, and theirs is on the right.

Some notable people on my side of the comic include:

@milady-mothman - the best friend in the first panel!

@gagtodeath - the cousin in the third panel!

@andrewjacksondestroyer - our very close friend from the fourth panel!

We’ve been trying to publish more of these, but we keep wanting to start new comics instead of finishing old ones (yes, we have ADHD, lol).

Uhhh so anyway, hope you enjoy!

[Image ID: Note: There are two stories told simultaneously in this comic. The story on the left will be described first, and then the story on the right.

Begin ID: Panel 1: The background is sea foam green. There is some text near the top that reads, “Coming out to our best friend as a system was a huge deal for us. They’re super supportive and we love them very much (platonically). Underneath that, there is a gray text message bubble coming from the left that reads, “who am I speaking to?” Beneath that, there is a blue text message bubble that reads, “Ao and Ruby, thanks for asking.”

Panel 2: The background is sea foam green. There is one block of text near the top that reads, “We came out to another friend using memes and a comic we made on Super Storyboarder.” Beneath that, there is another block of text that reads, “She thought the memes were funny and seemed to really appreciate them.”

Panel 3: The background is sea foam green. There is a block of text at the top of the page that reads, “Coming out to our cousin was a pretty big deal. We came out to her after the concert of an artist we both love. We had brought up DID before, but we would always talk about our ‘friends,’ who were a system (hint: it was us). She’s always been super understanding and even follows us on Simply Plural now.” Beneath that is a drawing of two people on a dock across from some land with trees and houses. The water around the dock is reflecting an orange color, like the sunset. The person on the right has short black hair, peach skin, and is wearing a white shirt with long sleeves and white pants. There is a white box next to them that says, “Coltun (they/them), one of two alters who has a super deep voice while fronting (the only one of the two that we knew about at the time). They are saying, “Did you hear the change in my voice before?” The person on the left has long red hair, peach skin, a black shirt with long sleeves, and blue pants. She is saying, “Yeah, I was wondering if that was you.”

Panel 4: The background is sea foam green. There are two blocks of text at the top. The first one says, “One of our biggest system coming outs was the first time we ever told anyone. Ao knew of 8 alters at the time (including eirself), but thought ey was imagining them (spoiler alert: ey wasn’t). The block of text beneath it says, “We had heard of DID before, but knew almost nothing about it.” Beneath that, there are two people sitting on a gray ledge with their feet on a sidewalk. The one on the right has long brown hair, peach skin, a neutral facial expression, light brown eyes, thick black square glasses, a red flannel jacket with long sleeves, blue pants, and red shoes. There is some text next to him that says, “Corey (he/him), co-host of our friend’s system at the time.” He is saying, “I’m a system, which means I am many people in one body.” The person on the left, Ao, has peach skin, reddish-brown hair, a shocked facial expression, blue eyes, a gray hoodie with a darker gray pocket and hood, black shorts and black shoes. Ey is saying, “That sounds like what I’ve been experiencing!”

Begin second story ID:

First panel: The background is a warm shade of pink. There is a block of text near the middle that says, “we never planned to come out to any of our friends initially, being afraid of being judged or misunderstood. yet it turned out to not be so bad.” Beneath that, there is a smiling person who is the same color as the background with shoulder-length messy hair.

Second panel: The background is a warm shade of pink. At the top of the panel, there is some text that says, “Yet after a while, one of our hosts was tired of hiding it all, and told some of our friends.” A block of text below that on the right side of the panel reads, “They were extremely accepting.” There are two people in the panel. Both are the same color as the background. The first has completely black eyes, shoulder-length somewhat messy hair, two antlers, a smile, a bit of sweat on their face, a pointy tail, a turtleneck sweater under an open jacket with cuffed sleeves, and pants. “Lucid” is written above their head. There is a tiny speech bubble next to them with an ampersand in it. The person on the right has short hair with bangs that cover their eyes, a slightly open mouth, lines next to their face indicating emotion, and a hoodie with long drawstrings. Next to them is a small speech bubble with a check mark and an exclamation point.

Panel 3: The background is a warm shade of pink. At the top of the panel, there is a block of text that says, “and on the inverse, we helped our partner realize that they were also a system.” Beneath that, there is more text that says, “it warmed our hearts to know that they trusted us with this concept and we helped them come to terms and realize it.” There are two people below that. Both are the same color as the background. The one on the left is looking at the one on the right. They are winking. They have shoulder-length hair, a smile, a braided band in their hair, and two pairs of wings- one on their head and one on their back. The word above their head is Civ. There is some text above their head that says, “y’know, how did you NOT realize??” The person on the right is looking at the person on the left. Their mouth is open. They have chin-length hair, a hoodie, horns, and a pointy tail. The word above their head is Colix. There is some text above them that says, “..IM A LITTLE STUPID-“

Panel 4: The background is a warm shade of pink. The text at the top says, “We don’t regret being open about our system one bit.” The text beneath it says, “It might have caused us some pain, but we have made so many more good memories since that day.” Beneath that, there are two people holding hands. They are sitting on green grass and the background behind them (underneath the text) is crimson. The person on the left has peach skin, shoulder-length dark crimson hair, black eyes, a smile with a fang in it, a red shirt with long sleeves and a white collar and cuff, crimson pants, a dark crimson bat wing on the left side, black shoes, and a red rose on the right side of their hair. There are three small speech bubbles on the left side of them. The top one has a red heart, the middle one has an orange flower, and the bottom one has a yellow star. The person on the right is looking at them. They have thin black square glasses, light blue-green skin, light blue-green hair that sticks out more and is a little longer than the hair of the other person, a smile, a darker blue-green shirt with a frill on the front under a darker blue-green jacket buttoned at the bottom with a collar, darker blue green pants, and a furry tail the same color as their skin. On the right side of their face is a dark blue-green patch. They do not have an eye there.

End ID]

In-System Relationships

Sorry this took so long. We’ve been really excited about this one. Next comic will be about signs that were missed. Bonus points if you can guess the sources of any of our fictives (I think one is pretty obvious if you know the source).

Unrelated to DID: My Very Good Friend @petticoatedmouse made a Discord server for people who like sewing. No particular level of experience required.

Here is the link:

[Image description:

Note: Their identities are listed because they are holding their flags in the comic.

First image, panel 1: A grey background with two people, Jenny (she/her), a fictive, who is demisexual and pansexual, and Omara (ze/zir), who isn’t an introject, but based parts of their appearance on a video game character. Omara is sapphic and has an unlabeled gender. The caption reads “In-system relationships… …quite a complex phenomenon.”

Panel 2: A pink background with the outline of a red heart and the captions, “So complex, in fact, that we can even feel the attraction on the outside. But only if the alter experiencing attraction is fronting or co-conscious.”

Panel 3: A grey background showing Worlds (she/they), a lesbian introject (who is also a vampire), and Kelly (she/her), a bisexual factive, holding hands. The caption says, “Sometimes, there are very much like out-of-system relationships.”

Panel 4: Worlds, whose bat wings are now visible, is flying through space with Kelly on their back. The captions are in white boxes and they read, “Other times, not so much” and “Yeah, I don’t think singlets typically fly through space (our innerworld is in space) on their partner’s back.”

Second image, panel 1: A sea foam green background with the words, “Of course, not every headmate wants this. We just have a lot of in-system relationships.”

Panel 2: A stage with a keyboard, microphone, and part of a drum set visible with a grey background is shown. Two alters are standing on it, Bay (she/her), a fictive who is ambiamorous and omnisexual, is standing by the piano looking at Sodium, and Sodium (she/her), an ambiamorous lesbian, is standing by the mic looking at Bay. The caption says: “They can be just as complex as out of system relationships… (yes, we have a stage in headspace where we perform whatever we’re listening to IRL).”

Panel 3: Captions say, “…and just as full of love.” and “While we have several polyamorous and ambiamorous headmatss, we don’t have any throuples or other with more than two partners. Systems that do have these are absolutely valid though.” Sodium is shown sitting on a grey bench on a grey background with another factive, Radium (she/her), who is demiromantic, demisexual, and trixensexual.

Panel 4: A sea foam green background with the caption, “They are very important in our system. When partners spend time together, it improves our overall mental health.”

Third image, panel 1: A sea foam green background with the caption, “This gets more complicated with introjects. Sodium and Radium are factives from the same source, but they aren’t dating IRL, which is a bit awkward. And yes, it’s valid to have factives who are dating IRL. We just don’t have any.”

Panel 2: Caption: “With fictives, it’s a little different. You may be fan favorites or even canon. Or you may be an unpopular ship or not canon (valid as long as there are no problematic elements) (no, they’re not getting married, this is how they dress in source).” It shows Jules (he/they), a bi demiboy, and Alicia (she/they), a pan girl (both fictives) on a grey background, looking at each other.

Panel 3: Caption: “And yes, it’s also valid to have fictives who aren’t dating their source-partner. Whether that’s because you don’t have an introject of them…” Cristina (she/they), who is pan, is shown on a grey background, saying, “If we had an introject of him, and he asked me out, I’d say yes.”

Panel 4: Caption: “…or because they’re simply not attracted to them (although in this case, we don’t have an introject of him either- thank goodness).” Eugenia (she/any), who is pan, and Mercedes (she/they/he), who is non-binary and straight (we chose to include that because they aren’t cis), are shown on a gray background saying, “Ewwwwww!”

Fourth image, panel 1: A sea foam green background with the caption: “Of course, in-system relationships aren’t for everyone.”

Panel 2: Rhombus (they/them), who is gendervoid, agender, and aroace, is shown on a grey background, with a caption and arrow next to them that reads, “Not interested in any kind of relationship.”

Panel 3: Three alters, Inflexible (they/them) (introject), who is lesbian, oriented aroace, and bellusaroace, Grey (they/he) (introject), who is non-binary and aroace, and Jayde (they/them), who is oriented aroace, pomosexual, and liagender, are shown on a grey background. Caption: “All three are interested in QPRs, and all three have experienced tertiary attraction towards people in the outerworld, but they are not interested in each other.”

Panel 4: A sea foam green background with the caption, “Especially when what you want is on the outside.”

Panel 5: The hosts, Ao (ey/eir) and Ruby (she/her) (captions say to check our first comic for their labels because there are a lot of them)!are shown on a grey background. The caption next to Ao has an arrow and says, “Has feelings for a singlet.” The caption next to Ruby has an arrow and says, “Has feelings for a different singlet.”

End image description]

Delay

Hey y'all, We have family visiting, so it will likely take us a while to post our next comic. Fear not, it has been started, but the subject matter alone means it will take a while. So yeah. Expect that eventually. - Ao

Here is the sweet little in-between comic we said we would make! Hope y’all enjoy!

Title: “Kids & Old Comfort Media”

Tie-Breaker

And the winner was... actually a tie...

Yeah, now we're going to do a run off. Though we will probably do the runner-up after this one.

So...

Poll Update: Inflexible actually said something that gave us the idea for our next comic. So the poll will be used to decide the comic after that.

~ Matthew (still me, just decided I'd rather use this name on here)

Update: After mentally planning everything over the course of several hours, they decided that they'd rather not do that comic (it's a little too personal for them). Fear not, we are going to be putting out a new comic before the poll one, and it will be very sweet.

We can't decide yet- curious what you all want to see. Thanks folks.

~ Mathi

First Comic!

Title: “Hosts”

Uh yeah so we’re the hosts. Nice to meet everyone. :D

[Image Description:

Top half of first picture:

Enby with reddish hair past chin length in a hoodie saying, “Hey y’all! I’m Ao, and I’m one of the hosts. I’m also the one who identifies with the body! I use ey/eir pronouns. Used like: “I saw eir today. Ey was smiling at that cat of eirs.”

Butch girl with short dark hair saying, “Hey! I’m Ruby! I’m the other host, and Ao is my twin sibling. I don’t identify with the body, but I grew up in it along with Ao. Both of us age with the body. I use she/her pronouns.”

Bottom half of that picture:

Ruby: “Now we’re going to talk about our labels. If you don’t know what any of these mean, feel free to ask.”

Ao: “I’m kind of a microlabel enthusiast, sooooo this one applies more to me than to her.”

There is a white box that says “Label Lists” and two pieces of paper with scribbles below them.

Top half of second picture is a close-up of these lists.

List 1: Ao’s labels:

Omnisexual, demiromantic, aceflux, nebulasexual, nebularomantic, alexigender, aurorian, autigender.

List 2: Ruby’s labels:

Lesbian, ambiamorous, graysexual, demisexual.

Bottom half of that picture:

Ao: “We hope you enjoyed this comic! Expect more soon! Thanks for reading and please take care of yourselves!”

Ruby: “See y’all later!”

End image description]

We do not support endos here.

If your an endo "system" FUCK OFf

How endos hurt the wider system community

I’ve seen some people confused on how endogenic people hurt systems so here’s a list of things they do! I might’ve missed something so feel free to add on in comments/re-blogs

Also, before this starts:Our stance on endos varies from alter to alter but the widest understanding is that most of them are misdiagnosing or not aware of their trauma. But still, they’re causing real harm so we dislike them.

1:”Demedicalizing” systemhood

A thing we’ve seen endogenics talking about no longer classifying systemhood as a disorder. This would make proper diagnosing and finding resources even harder. This also includes the fact they argue that systems can form without trauma. With all scientific evidence, endogenics do not exist. Systems come from repeated childhood trauma that stops a child’s personality from developing normally. 

2:Attacking systems

So many systems have been attacked by endos for stuff as simple as having endos in their dni. Considering that these are already traumatized people this is incredibly shitty. I’ve seen them send death threats in vivid detail. I’ve seen them brag about offending traumagenic systems.There’s also words like syscum or traumascum. It’s all very weird

3:Spreading misinformation  

This plays into the first point but the very idea of an endogenic system is misinformation. You cannot choose to split off alters, and trying to can be very harmful. And increases the chances of systems getting attacked for having certain alters. “System hoping” cannot happen and is used to hurt systems who are in vulnerable positions. And most importantly you cannot have a system without childhood trauma.

4:Invading traumagenic spaces

Let’s say hypothetically endogenic systems were a real thing. There is no current scientific baking to this but lets act like there was. They would still be invading our spaces. System communities are safe spaces for traumatized people and endogenics often invade them. It makes those spaces feel less safe

That’s all we have for now. Again feel free to add on. We ask endos do not interact with this(like every post on this blog) 

"You're so good at writing this character" thanks. They live in my head. I consult them on the plot points. I literally know them.

THE ACTUALLY DISSOCIATIVE TAG IS NOT FOR ENDOS!!

i thought that was common sense!! its like how endos have #pluralgang, traumagenics have #actually dissociative!! RESPECT THIS!!!

working on plural related stickers for my shop :-) the flag will be customizable (like dissociative disorder, type of system, system origin, ect) preorder here so i can get a sense of how many people are interested !

Got a whole two hours left! 🎉🎉

In true DID fashion, I've forgotten that March 5th is

🌈🌟 DID AWARENESS DAY 🌟🌈

I'm going to celebrate by dissociating

Happy awareness!

The thing about being an autistic system undergoing a host change is that now all our former safe foods don’t taste the same and we have to figure out safe foods all over again…