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pov: we're doing a body check

you know your fcked when "omg ur so skinni" "you look like ur dyeing" "you look sick" starts to sound like a compliment 😃

whn you say "i already ate" and no one questions "what? / when" etc 😌

my biggest ✨ thinspo icons ✨ ; park jimin, min yoongi, rosè, yuna and jennie <3

i am unhappy because i binge and i binge because i am unhappy....

i reaally wanna vent. its my birthday today. i wear this beautiful dress and the first thing my dad does is say "this looks too tight" "lets return it if ur uncomfortable". i thought i looked pretty in it. i am on the verge of crying. i asked my mom and my sis if the dress looks tight and they gave me "the look". i am fucking done. like i am fucking relapsing. fuck food. fuck everything. i hate myself for letting me get this fat. i am a pile of disgusting fats. lets get skinny.

the thing i hate the most? when i have been fasting for 48+ hours and i go to have my first meal and someone comments "aRe yOu gOnNa fINISh aLl tHaT, tHaTs aLot oF fOod" i don't wanna eat anymore susan, tysm.

me counting the calories after a binge:

when you count your daily calories and its more than your "limit"

why i want to be skinny? i want to feel pretty. i want to wake up and feel beautiful. i want to hug people and not worry about them touching my fat. i want to wear jeans and not worry about my huge thighs. i want to wear sleeveless shirts and not having to worry abt my jiggly arms. i want comments like "your so skinny omg" "wht is your diet like?" "can u give me some tips?" i want to feel superior. i just.... want to be beautiful ♡ and i know i will achieve all my goals. i want skinny, and i will get my skinny.