I Wish I Could Let Them Know That I'm Not Thin, Not Even Close To It. I Feel Fuller Every Day And Nothing
i wish i could let them know that i'm not thin, not even close to it. i feel fuller every day and nothing is stopping me because i think i might be healing but i don't think those who heal get destructive thoughts like this and i don't mind being the enemy and contrarian of my own mind because it only reminds me how sick i am and i love knowing how sick i am, it makes me feel worse and i know that i achieved my goal but sometimes i feel alone because who could i really talk to about this who would understand and cradle my face in their hands and plant kisses on my forehead and tell me that they'll look after me forever and i'll never have to feel like this ever again
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i feel so so so horrible
Yohji Yamamoto Pour Homme AW1995 Floral Turtleneck
constantly grieving over what i went through and how i made up for myself
nevermind im mad at her again
i need to hug my mother and cry into her neck because i miss the warm embrace of her womb and this bed is too cold for me; i just wish she held me. i just want her to care for me forever, no matter how bitter and painful loving me is
uneasy
i cannot really handle birds or fish as pets anymore because i have seen the dead forms of both and they haunt me so closely and i do not need that on my conscience
i also wish humans did not care so much for intimacy because i hate to see anything around me die and i think a cat or a puppy or a lover would hurt the most and i already know i would not survive it
“your my best friend, now i’ve got no one to tell i’ve lost my best friend.”
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new year, consistently corrosive me
Not going to lie . this might be the worst july Ever. and that might or might not be related to me turning Eighteen (crazy)
