Thank You. Yes, I REALLY Do Need To Affirm My New Name. I Still Have To Use My Old Name In Real Life.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I put the letters in quadrants this time. I'm so smart!

I slept all day today. I wish I didn't hate myself so much. I really have a lot of self-hate. Forgiving myself is something I'm working on. Being angry at myself for being disabled is so cruel and bigoted. I just want the mental screaming to stop, so I can rest.

I tried to quit nicotine again yesterday. Cue the instability and mental screaming. I couldn't do it. I bought some more nicotine. Panhandling annoys the conservatives, and it will pay for my nicotine. I really need to get out there and panhandle. The worst thing that could happen is a mugger tries to kill me and take my money. I am a giant. I have never been mugged before. The first person who tries to mug me gets to find out what it's like to have all their joints dislocated one by one. But that probably won't happen. I'll take a picture of the panhandling spot and post a tracing this evening.

I cleaned my room and mowed the lawn today. So that's good.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I drew my first self-portrait! Don't I look fabulous?

I have bipolar disorder, autism, and social agoraphobia. That's why I can't work. I have had so many different jobs, and it never works out. So I have to transition to working from home, which for me means that I have to learn some sort of creative skill like art.

∅ Hi, Blue here. ∅ I deleted number 6, and made a new version. This is number 8, not counting the deleted one. I am a real star!

My ability to draw is severely limited. I need to improve my skill in private to be able to continue with this art project. So there will be no more images for a while. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and my existence has value.

Happy midnight! Today is a new day, and the start of a new era. Today I draw for you the sacred Triforce. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and my past does not define me.

I did some yard work today to make a little money. Tomorrow, I need to get up bright and early and panhandle. I did not choose to be disabled. I deserve to live well. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and it is not selfish of me to ask for help.