Just Had A Quest Bar And I'm Sorry But They Taste So Bad😭 I Think If I Really Got A Craving For Something

Wednesday 25/10

My parents still eat super unhealthy but I could manage it this time! Yippee!

Today I had 896 calories which now that I've added my dinner calories up that's kinda crazy like my smoothie (which looks gross but it was actually yum trust me) was less than 200 calories

After school I went on a walk and had a smoothie with banana, apple, cinnamon and a little milk which was 182 Cal

Mum made dinner and she gave me a huge portion for some reason?? It was 714 Cal though which I mean thank god I didn't eat anything more throughout the day like that's actually crazy. Surprisingly I ended up eating it all tho mainly because I didn't want my mum getting suspicious

My families ordering pizza *again* for dinner😭 I think I might just take my meta day today so I can enjoy it because ill feel disgusting regardless. God I wish my family was healthy, I did so good today too I only had one thing and it was like 200 calories </3

Went out for an early tea, I had to eat it all because my aunty knows about my ed and now I feel so gross😭 I reckon it was around 700 kcal from what I've looked up

I thought I was the smallest out of all my friends so i was only gonna restrict calories for another week but it turns out one of thems taller than me but still only 46 kilos I'm going fucking crazy why can't that be me

This is nowhere as aesthetic because my mum made it for me which also meant I had to guess the amounts </3

My guess is:

A total of 299 kcals

Mashed potatoes- 1/3 cup- 85 kcal

Chicken- 1/4 cup- 80 kcal

Peas- 1/4 cup- 29 kcal

Mashed parsnip and carrot- 3 tbsp- 5 kcal

Does anyone else feel better about their body since relapsing?? Like I used to sit at the mirror and nitpick everything wrong with my appearance but now I'm just like 'damn, I look good. Once I lose a few kilos I'll look great'

Just tried one of these for the first time and it's so good!?!? They're super cheap too which is awesome

This is what I ate today! Istg my family actually eats so unhealthy I wish I had an almond mum😭 all up though this was 752 calories so not that bad really

In my smoothie I had half a banana, 1/3 cup of milk, 1/4 cup of Greek yogurt, plus cinnamon and water. It was 227 kcal

For tea I had a cup of chips (just a guess), two ham steaks and an egg which was 525 kcal, kind of a lot for one meal but I'm just grateful it wasn't more I won't lie

All up today I consumed 1190 kcal and I feel so gross😭 I can't wait for school tomorrow so it takes my mind off of being hungry, I just had that dinner and I actually feel disgusting

For breakfast I had:

poached eggs on toast (352 kcal) and a banana and cinnamon smoothie (163 kcal)

For a snack:

Fried tofu (106 kcal)

For lunch:

4 rice cakes with canned tuna (148 kcal)

For dinner:

Chips, coleslaw and half a bit of chicken schnitzel that my mum got me (421 kcal)