Working - Blog Posts

It feels like the only thing I do is work... no time for anything else, and im tierd so very tierd.

I don't even have time to draw when I whant, and it truly sucks...

Please... im just so very tierd...

I do not even have the energy to work out... something so normal and important and not even that... I have no energy, I feels so overstimulated...

AND on top of that my depression has been kicking my ass, I truly have no idé on how to fix anything anymore...

Me: yay, i can sleep in today! Cuz im not working today :)

Job:...

Me:...What?

Job:✨️no✨️

Me: aw man... :(

I need to draw my MC sona one day.

I do think mc me and art sona me would not get along however. How Imagine e2Joel & editorJoel get along. Without any kinda smooches going on. Just violence, me thinks.

Also need to draw artistsona so there's that. I want my own pfp. Someday

What I Ate: Working from Home

do you actually like your job or did you just have a good work day for once?

I think I'd do well avoiding predators because I can laze my ass off at work, in the back room on my phone sitting on a cart, but the instant I hear the faintest footstep pass by the door I'm up phone in pocket pretending like I'm busy

Jobs give you money in exchange for your sleep schedule

Yall im alive and working on projects, I swear 💀 sorry it's taking so long for chapter 2

Working on pages for the X-Key webcomic you can read over at highoctanerevolution.com (that’s a mouthful). Gotta love Wacom! 

Working, regardless of industry, can be hard if you're like me. They expect both speed AND accuracy. I can only do one or the other, and it's all or nothing. If I'm accurate and do my job well, I'll be too slow. If I'm quick and can finish in a timely manner, it's all wrong and I might have to start over. But they want BOTH.

Nobody Told Me This shit would suck so much

first job. walmart. sucks. I think i was mildly depressed before and maybe didn’t really notice; now i REALLY feel it. Ive been crying freaking rivers the past few days. especially before and after work. and its so hard to keep it mostly hidden. i felt guilty and useless before for not doing much with my time, but it hasnt really changed. im so tired and fucking upset. its so hard, but they tell me to be happy that im making so much for a place like walmart, i hate it. i never wanted to grow up and suffer, i just wanna feel okay. i wanna run away from all of this, maybe even disappear. this world is so painful. maybe im not cut out for all of this, i just wanna sleep

“Looking for someone more qualified”

How the fuck am  I not qualified enough for Walmart??!!?

26f we recently renovated our house and had a few workers in and out all the time. it was mostly me at home alone w them most of the time and i would tease them with revealing outfits. they would constantly check me out and got braver when it was obvious that i liked them looking. in their last couple of weeks i wound up servicing their cocks during their lunch hour and got pumped with sooo much cum 🤤

Friday morning. Off to work

Break from work!

"work" that "college" that how about freeloading off my parents until im 50

Not an odd parallel at all

So here's the thing. Well, two things.

I'm one of those filthy tabletop game people. (So is my spouse; she has been since before we met, too.) After college, well, we needed to create a new group of people to get entirely too interested in the fall of oddly-shaped pieces of plastic and the lives of fictional elves. We are also, it must be said, on the old side. We remember the Before Times. And in the Before Times, and even a bit after that, game groups were invariably largely male. Indeed, it wasn't at all uncommon for a group of gamers to have *at absolute most* exactly one female member. (Take a look at some of the classic game-related comics-- take a look at the gender groupings in Knights of the Dinner Table or Order of the Stick. These are pretty typical; many groups had zero female members.)

But our post-college group kind of wavered, shifted, stabilized-- and suddenly, we had, and to this day, still have, a majority-female gaming table. There wasn't anything to it, honestly. It just... happened.

So here's the other thing.

The industry I work in isn't really known for progressive politics in many ways. It's one of those things, not restricted to any one company-- it's the entire industry. (It's not just politics, for that matter-- my industry can be incredibly reluctant to, say, upgrade technology. We don't like change much.)

But the specific company I work for? At one location, one particular division-- and not one you'd expect this of *at all*-- is currently majority trans.

That's even more surprising than the first one; I don't know what the current math is on the percentage of trans people in the population as a whole, but I'm going to go out on a limb and guess that it's less than, oh, ten percent. So if random chance was involved, what are the odds that we'd have one job category at one location be 57% trans?

So how did that happen, anyway?

I'm pretty sure that it's the same reason in both cases.

In our gaming group, as we formed, other women in our community who were tabletop gamers saw that we had multiple women in our group, that we didn't treat them like romance objects or second-class players, that they were comfortable and happy hanging out with us. And the female members of our group, of course, were happy to tell other women about how fun it was. So more asked to join our group. And now our table is so big we can't even fit more people in, and still majority-female.

And, well, I'm not trans, and I'm not in that community, but I'm going to guess that since we started hiring other trans folks, and treating them with respect, word got out that that's what we did-- treat them with respect-- and so other people came to us over some other employer where, say, they might be taking a chance on how they'd be treated.

And I'm glad that it's worked out that way, for them, and for us.

And... I don't know. I think that it illustrates a truth that gets overlooked by some people. If someone says "[Group] isn't interested in [Hobby/Vocation/Activity]," maybe what they aren't seeing is that people don't necessarily feel safe or comfortable or welcome in some spaces, and that if it's clear that that the space is welcoming, then the demographics suddenly start to reflect the people who are really out there instead of the stereotypes.

Or something like that. I don't know. I'm not a sociologist.

But what I do know is that I have a really cool tabletop gaming group.

And I do know that we were able to hire enough people in a location and position that had been pretty painfully understaffed.

And both of these things are good.

And, just between me and all of you, I think that basically treating people with respect got us there.

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15-September 2023: Todd Sanfield Adrenaline Sport Brief

It's Friday! Here's a quick work place selfie. If you haven't checked out Todd Sanfield's line of swimwear or underwear, I encourage you to do so! Enjoy your weekend ;-)

And always show off your undies!

Got some new canvases for Christmas and got into the painting mood. Decided to paint a sunset with clouds. Mostly clouds. It been a long time since I painted something, I can't even remember the last time I did something like this. I spent most of my day sitting and just painting. It was awesome!!

we all got those tumblrs our online friends don’t know about so u can feel confident without any of them hehehehee