You have lost your reason and taken the wrong path. You have taken lies for truth, hideousness for beauty. You would marvel if, owing to some strange events of some sorts, frogs and lizards grew on apple and orange trees instead of fruit, or if roses began to smell like a sweating horse; so I marvel at you who exchange heaven for earth. I don't want to understand you.
Living the life you want even when others around you despise you is no punishment. Real punishment is living with guilt of not chasing your passion and dreams.