Should You Fancy A Read And Not Carry A Fear Of Thinking... Here's My Current Recommendation. Enjoy.

Life is about growth and change. Every living thing grows and changes. Anybody who refuses to grow and change is still growing and changing, just in less positive ways.

Now THAT looks like a baseball game I would pay to watch but it is nice to know I can watch it on YouTube. Thank you "60 Minutes" for introducing me to it.

Old dogs CAN learn new tricks!

It's fun. When we're young we get shoved in many directions by those who are supposed to be "teaching" us. We don't realize just how broken most of those folks are and to be fair, they usually don't have a clue either. As we grow and experience life, we get shoved around by reality and forced to play by certain rules because well, things don't slow down long enough in many cases to realize there are other options. Here's where I giggle and say again... broken humans creating broken humans. But, if we're lucky... there comes a point where we can take a breath, look around, see just how twisty things, situations, and people really are.... and begin to rethink how we want to navigate our way through the chaos. That's where I'm at. It's messy. I make mistakes. I wander around clueless a lot. I flop onto the floor and just wait for things to give me less of a headache. I try new things. I laugh and cross some things off my try, or try again, lists. And sometimes... I squeal like a hyper six year old and giggle bounce trying to show anyone who will pay attention my most recent accomplishment... even if sometimes it seems MUCH bigger to me than it would to ANYONE else. hahaha The important part here is that I'm learning a LOT about who I am, who I was sort of forced to pretend to be, and how the actual me can function more smoothly in the world of twisty humans. I'm beginning to understand glitches, adjust my priorities, find new ways of seeking the options I want, and having plenty of fun in the process. I really wish I could have done this when my brain and body were a bit more... cooperative but hey... take it when ya get it right? heh Anyway... I've shared. I hope you're having some fun in the little glimmery moments of life. Laters.

Pain....

Pain is interesting. It makes people do strange things. It can make folks weird, angry, sad, and many other things. Just like any "animal" when someone is in pain, they may do things, or say things, they wouldn't say if they weren't hurting. What makes it more interesting is that you can't see... pain. You can't look at someone and always know for sure if they are hurting. You can read their angry posts or texts, grumble at their complete avoidance of activities, or wonder what is wrong with them when they deal with their pain by being utterly goofy but you can't always SEE... pain. Just a fun fact to share. Something to think about when someone acts a bit gruff or gives you a dirty look in passing. Might not have anything to do with you. Might have a lot to do with pain... plain and simple. Just sayin.

I found this on WordPress after I got told to look it up. Why did I get told to look it up? Well, because that is similar to the process I went through as I geared up to attack the danger plants in my yard today, in the VERY hot sun, with a light breeze, and currently fighting a cold. LOL .... I ended up with sun protection, dust protection, eye protection, arm protection, boots, gloves, and laughter. hahaha I will say this though.... I WON. Danger plants dealt with and NO RASH! I am satisfied!

I am watching the movie "The Furnace" and I heard a quote that hit me in ways I can't even describe. "Strength, isn't measured by how much you can take before you break, it's how much you can take... after you're broken." .... Seriously, I can not even begin to express how much I felt that... so I felt it good to share. I can't say I always feel strong, but yeah, sometimes... I feel like a serious badass. haha

We all have our own battles. Whatever yours are.... take a deep breathe, listen to yourself, you got this... no matter how it may sound, look, or feel. Much love.

Show me.

I have had "friends", lovers, family, and more prove MANY times over how easy it is to say whatever the person thinks you want to hear but proving that their words are true... well, that's a whole different story. I've seen the attitudes as lies are defended. I've watched the lies change and shift depending on the moment. What I haven't really seen is people being honest, true, and open. So yeah, at this point... if you want me to believe.... show me.

The many faces of loss

I always get so grumbly with humans that think loss is a simple thing. A death, job change, relationship end, and many other forms of loss can have lasting, and often hidden (even to the one dealing with it) effects. So many people focus on the short term handling of the loss, or the lingering obvious issues and seem to think they know how the person should or shouldn't be acting. It's complete ridiculousness. NOBODY has ANY right to tell ANYONE how they should feel, or how the loss impacts them in their own realities. EVERY SINGLE CREATURE deals with each loss in their own ways. Some of the effects can be dealt with quickly and easily, some make permanent changes and will never be fully understood. NEVER.... EVER... let ANYONE tell you that you are somehow broken, or messed up, for how a loss impacts your own thoughts. Those who are trying to help will usually offer support, reassurance, patience, and space. If the person you think is there to help is pressuring you, making you feel like something is wrong with you, or is irritated by how things are effecting you... they are clearly NOT as helpful as they want to believe they are. If someone doesn't understand and is a bit inconvenienced because of your handling of a loss, that... is completely understandable... BUT... if they allow that to become an attitude towards you... THEY are the ones with a problem... NOT YOU! This human experience does not come with complete and foolproof instructions. We each have to figure things out in our own ways, no matter how many others try to tell us they have all the answers. So, if you're out there, and you're dealing with something, and you're feeling a bit beaten.... just remember.... you got this. There are those of us out there that understand it's complicated, it takes time, and USUALLY it's a lot more messy than anyone cares to admit. Just keep picking at it. You'll get where you need to be with it, if you really want to. Believe. ... Much love.

“Listen to people who know more than you do. Then do it your own way.”

— Alan Parker