Not Me Not Having The Energy To Write All Day And Only Getting Ideas And Motivations Now: As I'm Preparing

Update: found the term, you were correct!

Here's the link to what I found (link)

It’s so great to see anothe polymorph/shapeshifter who also has MaDD (I think the term for those is Xenreve if I’m not mistaken?)

May I ask about your kin experience while also having MaDD?

I don't know, maybe? To be fair I didn't know there was a term for that-

I'll look into it though, so if anyone has links-

It's a bit special, because I'm pretty sure I was a dog therian before anything else, but now it's shifted to being my main form as a shapeshifter.

I've daydreamed for as long as I can remember, and I don't mean the normal amount obviously: it's always been, and still is, a coping mechanism for me, dare I say the one I default too (art is a close second though, and I often mi the two).

As a note, my daydreaming hasn't been maladaptive for the last few years, but I still say I have madd. It's chronic the way I see it: if I'm not careful, it could become pathological again. Now i don't have to be careful all the time, but when I feel particularly bad I have to consciously use other ways to cope along with daydreaming, otherwise it still has a tendency to take over.

I like saying that until a few years back, I was fully living in my head. I had pretty much no life outside of my daydreams. And living fully in your daydreams for that long has had some interesting effects on my psyche and identity.

I've come to realise that I lived through my paraself because of multiple reasons, the main one being masking and being terrified to stop.

I mask way less now, and that's led to me feeling like my paraself, except reverse isekai'd: I barely have any memories outside of my daydreams until the years I "got out of my head", so it feels like being dropped from my world, the one I lived in 95% of the time, into this one.

Since my world is very much full of magic, there's a lot that didn't quite transfer to this body.

In source, I'm a shapeshifter. My constels and main forms are linked to this too: they're the forms I liked to take the most and the things I was and/or related to.

Now I also used to have magic. I could heal with it and create illusions. (I could also bend the elements a bit, but healing and illusions were my main ones).

I discovered earlier in childhood here witchcraft and forms of healing, and I've edged around it for a while (the healing methods, I've been practising witchcraft in this verse ever since I discovered it), but this year I've started learning to heal! It's not quite how it worked for me, but it's similar enough that it makes me really happy to be able to do so again.

For the illusion part, I've found performance arts the closest thing to it. I used to incorporate my magic into my art a lot, and I feel very connected to Everything when I'm performing, it's really euphoric.

That's all I can think about for now ahah, but I might reblog this with additions if I think of any ^^

In any case, thank you so much for the ask anon!! I love yapping and this was such an interesting and lovely question to answer <3

Last song: "Money" from the musical Cabaret

Favorite color: Green and purple

Last book: "King King Theory" by Virginie Despentes

Last Movie: Scream 4

Last TV Show: Agatha All Along

Sweet/spicy/savory: Savory/salty!

Relationship Status: Polyamorous, in a relationship

Last thing googled: Rimes-

Looking forward to: An open scene I'm going to this week

Current obsession: Work (drag and clowning)

Thanks for the tag!

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Last Song: Happiness is a Butterfly by Lana Del Rey

Favorite Color: Light dusty pink

Last Book: Dune

Last Movie: Nosferatu (2024) and it was so good!

Last TV Show: ER

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Sweet all the way

Relationship Status: Currently engaged to fellow fanfic writer @soholdmetightao3!

Last Thing Googled: No spoilers but it was medical case studies for the fic I am currently writing

Looking Forward To: Marrying @soholdmetightao3 this October!

Current Obsession: Cherik obviously and making my blorbos suffer

Tagging a few people but feel free to ignore @soholdmetightao3 @chris-in-the-headlights @havernel

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@trashy-kitty 👀

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@lifenconcepts Wasn't sure which one you wanted a pic of, so I took both! My shitty phone cam doesn't do the card justice tho 😭

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As a European, this morning has got my heart broken and worried. Worried for my kin in the US, and for the repercussions on the rest of the world.

I actually had hope. Hope that when given the option between harm reduction and straight up poison, few people would choose the poison.

To all of you in the US, I'm so sorry. Please stay safe, and stay alive. Remember, you living is a beautiful act of rebellion.

To all of those who chose the poison, I sincerely hope you choke on it.

Let's have a snack together! 🍟🍙

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