It’s Times Like This When I Think About You The Most.

Is it possible to hate on someone so much? Or loathe even.

I loathe my brother. I'm scared of what he might do. I can't properly put it up to simpler word but he's stupid, immature, and no matter how you told him not to do this thing, he still does it.

He is so annoying to the point that I want him to be eradicated from my life. Either that or I am the one to be away.

Some might think, I will only feel this now, that it's only cat fights then later, I'd forgive him. Before, that's the case. I forgive him, he's my brother, of course.

But he's been like that ever since time immemorial. He has never changed.

They say, never result to physical violence, everything can be fixed through talking. But the thing is, he never even listen. How can we sort things out now?

Just yesterday, I'm explaining to him something because he seem not to understand it. But he didn't listened. He just said, "Blah, blah, blah."

Tell me, how can ones patience not reach its limit if encountered someone like that? I'm being serious and that all he'd say?

Before, I thought that it's maybe because he's still young. Maybe, one day, he'll mature. One day, he'll understand. Years had pass, yes, he is not the same anymore. He became worse.

What should you do to discipline someone without resorting to violence besides talking? Suggestions?

I just realized! Dying in space means easy travel to the heaven!

"Oh, San Pedro! You're here so fast! Excited to send me, huh? Oh, you're just near? That explains why—what?! The heaven's just at one of the asteroids on the belt?!"

I would love to die in space. So if ever I'll become an astronaut and the mission failed even before the vessel I'm in haven't landed yet, don't feel sorry or sad. I've died away from people! Why feel that way! It's actually freaking awesome!

"The moon had been observing the earth longer than anyone. It must have witnessed all of the phenomena occurring—and all of the acts carried out —on this earth.

But the moon remained silent; it told no stories. All it did was embrace the heavy past with a cool, measured detachment. On the moon there was neither air nor wind. Its vacuum was perfect for preserving memories unscathed. No one could unlock the heart of the moon."

—Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

one thing you can always count on is that hearts change.

Howl’s Moving Castle 「ハウルの動く城」 (2004• ) dir. Hayao Miyazaki.

dear god the sheer magic of being so invested in a book you just sit and read half of it feverishly without any ability to stop, just gulping down word after word like it’s water in a desert and your eyes aren’t fast enough for your mind and when you reach the last page you look up and realize you’re not decades and miles away but in the space of your own room,,,, truly unmatched by any other human experience

“I was very fond of you, but now I’m so, so tired. I’m not happy to go, but one needn’t be happy to make another start.”

— Albert Camus

"Like water, too much pressure can lead to escape."

- Titan Academy

okay but real talk

someone: *is nice and a decent human being*

“mbti experts”: AH, YES, THEY’RE A FEELER!

someone: *doesn’t like parties*

“mbti experts”: INTROVERT ALERT! HYPER-INTROVERSION RIGHT HERE!

someone: *in high spirits and enthusiastic today*

“mbti experts”: OOH OOH ENFP WITHOUT A DOUBT!

someone: *likes art*

“mbti experts”: WELL THEN THEY CAN’T BE A SENSOR!!!

someone: *meets a deadline*

“mbti experts”: SO ORGANIZED, A JUDGING TYPE FOR SURE!

someone: *likes Star Trek*

“mbti experts”: OMG A REAL LIFE INTP!!!!!!!!

someone: *cares for someone exactly once*

“mbti experts”: DEFINITELY DOM EXTROVERTED FEELING! FE VIBES!!!!

someone: *does well in school*

“mbti experts”: A THINKER! YES!  T H I N K E R ! TRUE INTELLECTUAL!!1!!!1

someone: *cries once*

“mbti experts”: THEY’VE GOTTA BE INFP! AWW SWEETIE COME HERE

someone: *is bossy*

“mbti experts”: OH YES AN EXTJ NO OTHER EXPLANATION FOR THIS

someone: *remembers something*

“mbti experts”: I N T R O V E R T E D  S E N S I N G

someone: *flirts with someone*

“mbti experts”: AHHHH ESTP, OF COURSE!!!!!!

someone: *respects authority once*

“mbti experts”: MMMMMMMM GONNA SAY ISXJ YEEEEEP

someone: *meditates*

“mbti experts”: WHY YES, SE-DOM IN THEIR NATURAL HABITAT

someone: *likes plans*

“mbti experts”: INTROVERTED INTUITION! AHA! AHAAAAA! 

someone: *is stressed for like 30 seconds*

“mbti experts”: YOU’RE IN THE GRIP. OF COURSE. LET ME SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS BC YOU ARE DEFINITELY IN A COGNITIVE LOOP.

someone: “oh yeah, you know mbti? i took a cognitive function test. i didn’t know how accurate it was from its explanations, but i’ve done some more research and done some self-analysis, i think it fits pretty well. it gave me intj–”

“mbti experts”: UH NO YOU LITERALLY CAN’T BE INTJ??? WHO TOLD YOU THAT??? WELL THEY’RE WRONG SORRY. YOU MUST HAVE BEEN MISTYPED, LIKE THAT’S SOOOOO INACCURATE!!!! UGH I MEAN LOOK AT YOU? YOU’RE A NICE PERSON, INTJS AREN’T NICE WYM. AND YOU’RE LIKE SUPER LOW-KEY COME ON YOU’RE 23 INTJS HAVE ALREADY TRIED TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD BY AGE 20 WHAT ARE YOU DOING. WHAT ARE YOU EVEN THINKING????? I’M AN EXPERT ON THIS TOPIC, SUZIE. AN EXPERT. I KNOW MY STUFF. YOU DON’T EVEN LIKE COMPUTERS OR ANYTHING SCIENCE-Y SO YOU’RE DEFINITELY NOT AN EXTROVERTED THINKER. ALSO YOU CRIED LAST WEEK WHAT THE HELL YOU ARE NOT INTJ!!!!! I KNOW YOU!!!!!!!!! AND DON’T PRETEND YOU’RE AN INTROVERT I SAW YOU TALK TO LIKE FIVE PEOPLE TODAY?!??!?!?!?  UGH I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS I THOUGHT BETTER OF YOU SUZIE. LET ME TEACH YOU ABOUT YOUR PERSONALITY OKAY?????

“I was very fond of you, but now I’m so, so tired. I’m not happy to go, but one needn’t be happy to make another start.”

— Albert Camus

21.01.24 || New year, same old me with the pics from my study abroad two years ago. Where does the time go?

Term started late this year due to covid, but classes finally started last week. I’m taking three language courses and am in absolute heaven right now. I feel like I finally have the time to focus on the smallest details of Greek and Latin and can nerd out over grammar constructions with my professors. Maybe teaching a language is my true calling, since I’m at my happiest in a language class.

Also lerne ich Deutsch und lese Der Kleine Prinz. Wo sind die Deutschsprache studyblrs?